Discontinued: If Loving You Is Wrong 3

Casha

After explaining everything to Mama Sharon about how I was feeling and what I was feeling on everything, she understood. She wasn't mad at all and she reminded that no matter what happened between me and Jr she would always be there if no one else was.

When I made the decision to leave four in a half years ago I thought I doing right. Maybe it was the right thing to do at that time but then again maybe it wasn't at all. Im confused as hell on all of this. I'm sure after this everything will be put into perspective. While many things may have changed Rico's ability on being Rico won't ever change.

I sit there waiting and waiting and waiting some more. The door finally opens and in walks Rico. "Cash."

"Rico look at you. You look like you could break a nigga in half literally." He laughs sitting down. "It's been forever."

"I know."

"How Mama Sharon doing?" He asks. He called me last night while I was at the hospital visiting with her. They even spoke for a quick second. "She's managing." I say.

"How you doing?"

"I'm conflicted but I'm good." I answer him honestly. All this like everything is just a bit too much for me right now. I don't know how I ended up like this but old Casha just went with the flow, now it's a completely different story.

"What you mean?"

"Just on everything about being back and seeing everyone and you. I thought I've been acting in the best interest of my children but I don't think I've been doing that at all." He looks at me stunned. "Children? As in more than one?" I shake my head yes. "Casha Harris."

"Rico... I have a four year old little girl name Caliyah."

"Are you serious?"

"Very." I pull out my phone and show his a picture of Jayden and Caliyah. "Oh my God. She's beautiful."

I smile, "Thank you."

"And Jayden is so big, looking just like J-..... Caliyah is his too..." T says staring at her. I sigh, "Yes she is."

"Does he know?"

"You don't know what happen do you?"

"What you mean? What happen?"

"Malik was the Feds and that night they busted in the door and arrested Jr for drug charges or some shit like that. I went in to visit him and he went off on me. He thinks I set him up for all that shit. I don't know what they said to convince him I was in on it but he believed it."

"And y'all ain't talked since that?" I shake my head no. "I never had a chance to tell him anything. I was hurt he'd think I'd do him like that after all we went through and I never once folded against him. I even tried to tell him not to get involved like that but he didn't listen to me. I've been dead to him since that day 4 years ago."

"Them niggas are really sneaky as hell. They'll have you thinking all yo niggas done went against you. This why you left and cut everybody off?"

"Life here was becoming too much. I didn't think Jr family would be as embracing of me with open arms after all of that. It seemed like they started acting a lil funny, maybe it was just me but I had to go."

"You know they wouldn't have done you like that especially with Jayden and Caliyah involved. It was probably all in your head. Moving to another state and cutting everyone off is drastic, even for you."

"I was completely wrong on everything. T was the only one that kinda side-eye me but even after talking to him he felt like me moving was shady. Man Rico, it's just all a mess and they don't know about Caliyah. You're the first person I've told."

He runs his hand down his face. "Cay you killing me man. You been doing shit on your own for four years when you could've had help with them, rather than doing everything on your own. I know you're probably surviving well but you let go of your support system. The kids would know their family and not be so isolated and just around people they don't know. You been holding my niece and nephew hostage in a whole other state."

"I know it's fucked up but I felt like I could give them better there and not be around all the craziness here."

"How you been surviving all these years?"

"I have my own law firm."

"Word?"

"Yeah."

"I'm proud of you but you have to do better with Jayden and Caliyah. Don't ever keep them away like that. You robbed them of four years." Leave it to Rico to still lecture me like a father. "I know Rico."

"I understand you were scared and didn't know what to do and left like it was too much but you could've came to see me before you decided to leave. We could've talked everything out. You know I would've made sure y'all we're straight. Do they know about Jr?"

"Of course they do. I've never kept who he is to them a secret. They ask questions like when he's getting out and how did we meet. For a 5 and 4 year old they're so aware of everything. They're so curious and want to know everything about him."

"I hope I'm able to meet them one day. Don't ever go MIA like that again."

I playfully roll my eyes, "Okay Rico."

"I'm deadass or I'll personally have King come find you."

"I know. Is Keyshia here?"

"At first she was still they moved her. Jr was here too but they transferred him upstate."

"Oh."

"He's going to have a fit when he finds out he has a lil girl."

"You think he'll come back around?"

"Yes. He may be angry but he's going to see about Jayden and Caliyah, once he sees her."

"I just feel so bad about all of this."

"Listen I know it feels messed up but at the end of the day you shouldn't be too hard on yourself. You thought you were acting in the best interest of the kids and yourself. Although I'm mad about how things were, You can't fault you and I can't fault you for doing what you did. It's a scary feeling when it seems like the world is against you. Just take it as a lesson learn and fix whatever you can. They're still young so it won't be hard for them to get adjusted to their "new" family. Y'all gone be alright Cay."

"You're right."

After visiting with Rico I head back up to the hospital. "I brought food." I announce walking inside Mama's room. "Oh what's up?" A guy says sitting next to Mama's bed.

"This is Trevor my nephew."

"Hey." I speak back. Wow they have strong genes. "Well mama I just wanted to come back by before I flew back."

"It was such a short visit."

"I know, I'll be back and I'm bringing a surprise with me I promise." She smiles, "Don't let it be four years from now little girl. They supposed to be doing this surgery soon so I don't think I have that much time to play with."

"It won't be and you're going to do fine ma."

I lean down and lightly hug her. "I love you and Jayden too. Don't ever forget that."

"Yes ma'am. I'll sit this here.... it was nice meeting you Trevor. I'll see you later mama."

***
Upon arriving home I see a package. It's from King. I open it and see the same packaging from before, a big ass envelope. I chuckle sitting it inside my bag.

"Mommy!!" Caliyah screams running to me. "Hey baby girl."

"Did you bring us something back ma?" Jayden asks. "Yes, Well.... Listen I need you two to go back you're bags. We're going to Atlanta for the week."