I Will Always Be By Your Side(Eminem FanFiction)

Chapter 97

Chapter 97: (Helena's Point Of View!!!)

 *one month later! (May 2006)*

"Are you sure you don't want to go?" I asked Marshall.

"No. I will just stay here." He quietly replied.

 I was going to drop off the girls at school.

 "Um. Okay. I will be back in a bit." I told him.

 "Okay." He said.

I walked out and got the girls stuff ready. Julie was outside with the girls already. I quickly got everything then headed out.

 "Do you wanna go with us?" I asked Julie.

 "Sure." She replied then we got in the truck.

I drove the girls to school then parked in front. I quickly got out and got the girls out too. We walked up to the doors. I kneeled down in front of them.

"Okay girls good luck at school. I will come and pick you all up." I told them.

 "Will Dad come too?" Hailie asked.

"Um I will try and get him to come okay." I told them.

 "Okay." She quietly replied.

 "Okay. Well go on in. Be careful. Love you all." I said then kissed their foreheads.

 "Love you too." They all said then went inside.

 I walked back to the truck then got in.

"How’s everything going?" Julie asked me when I started driving.

"Well it’s not great. Marshall's still really bad. Hey I don't blame him. When Deshaun passed so did a part of him." I said.

"Yeah. He looks pretty bad." Julie said.

 "Yeah the girls hate seeing him like that. He barely goes out. He's like me when Madelyn passed." I said.

"Yeah well he just needs time." She said as she looked out her window.

"Yeah." I quickly replied.

 We got home then Julie went to Caroline's room and I went up to the bedroom.

"Marshall?" I said when I walked into the room. He was sitting on the edge of the bed.

 I hate seeing him like this. It kills me.

(EMINEM'S POINT OF VIEW!!)

Helena walked into the bedroom.

"Hey. You okay?" She asked me.

 The truth was I am not okay. I feel horrible. I miss Deshaun so much. I lost my brother and no one can make me feel better. I started using again. I had always used but that was only occasionally. Now all I want to do is take Vicodin, Valium, Ambien and Xanax. I sometimes even loose count of how many damn pills I take. They are the only thing that make me forget about everything for a while. Helena doesn't know. I have been trying to hide the symptoms from her for a while but I know sooner or later all this shit is going to catch up to me. I feel like I want to do nothing. I just want to stay here. I feel so alone even though I have my wife and daughters who love me. I feel like I have nothing to live for anymore. I wouldn't even be taken this shit if Deshaun didn't die. Whenever I take the pills it’s like a craving I have been having all day was satisfied.

 "Yeah. I am fine. I am just going to take a nap." I said as I laid down.

 "Are you sure? All you do is stay up here and sleep." Helena said.

"I am just tired. Please Helena." I said.

 "Ok." Helena quietly said then left.

 I don't know what she’s going to do when she finds out. I take all this shit just to get high. I don't want my daughters to find out. I just seriously need to do me and handle my problems my own way....