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Tee

I have finally recovered physically from my accident and I've been back to work , I'm still seeing the therapist because Taz insist it's the best thing " Hey Tee could you see if Eric is ready " " Sure " I picked up the phone and called Eric on his cell " Hey E , Sarah is ready for you " " Okay thanks I'm on my way " I hung up and informed Sarah that he was on his way , it was almost 5 and I had to get to the therapist by 6:30 , " Hey I'm on my way out do you need anything else ? " I poked my head in Sarah's office and asked " No that's fine , Thank you see you tomorrow " " Later " I closed the door back and made my way to my car. I still had to walk with this cane seeing as how my ribs were still slightly bruised. On my way to therapy I texted Taz and let her know I was on my way there , she wanted to know my every move now I swear she was like my personal security if she wasn't with my everywhere she sent Jimmy and if not I had to call her every hour on the hour. She texted me back and said okay and to meet her for dinner. I parked my car and got out. " Hello Tisean " " Hello Dr. Philips " " How are we today ? " " I'm good " I said taking a seat in the sued love seat " So what's on your mind today ? " " Well I've been having this new dream lately " " About ? " she asked adjusting herself in her seat " Well .... a baby ... " I said in a low tone " A baby ? Your baby that you lost ? " I look over at the window " Umm ... I'm not sure if it's mines , but it's crying and every time I try to go and pick it up it disappears " " So good that you are ready to talk about this , now the baby in your dream can represent multiple things Tisean , one it can represent the baby that you just lost and two it could represent you , the baby crying out is like your way of calling for help and when someone finally comes to lift the baby it's too late. Do you think it's too late Tisean ? " I sat there in silence for a moment , I didn't want the baby , I didn't plan on having it but I wasn't so sure about getting an abortion either " Too late for me yes " I said and dropped my head down " But it isn't , it's never too late Tisean, okay now look I want you to close your eyes and imagine this dream again , you hear the baby crying but this time you don't get up just yet to stop it now just wait , has it stopped yet ? " I closed my eyes and pictured this dream that I had been having for the past few nights , I'm in bed and I hear the baby crying and crying and then it eases up " Now get up and go check on the baby " I get off the bed and walk to the room where the baby is and there she is laying there in silence playing with her fingers , she's beautiful I reach down to pick her up and hold her closely to my chests , a tear rolls down my cheek " You can open your eyes now Tisean " Dr. Phillips said and I slowly opened my eyes because I wasn't ready to let this precious baby go , more tears started to roll down my face and Dr. Phillips grabbed a tissue and handed it to me " It's never too late , that baby was just alerting you of her presence , she didn't disappear because it was too late she disappeared because you weren't ready to face her , you can relax now because every thing is okay. You haven't yet prepared yourself to be okay with the situation but it wasn't your fault Tisean you had no control over the situation always remember that " I wiped my face and listened to her , after another hour talking to Dr. Phillips I felt much better and I hopped that if I did have this dream again tonight the outcome would be different.