Behind The Fake Smiles

I haven't been alright

I haven't been alright these days
Slowly shutting people off
Just to hide the mess that I am
Loneliness is a feeling that accompanies me for nights
I feel like I'm all by myself
Everyone else left me in the dark
Everything is disappearing
Hopefully one day it'll be my turn to disappear too
The sleepless nights
Wondering why I'm still alive ? When I should've been dead
I haven't been acting like myself
And I think it's noticeable now
Everything that I once enjoyed doing
It's all unenjoyable now
What the fuck is wrong with you ?! They ask
So many things are wrong with me darling
The list would go on and on about what is wrong with me