The Paranormal Life

chapter 27: death before the truth

Gerard's P.O.V.

this is my fault, this is all my fault....if I hadn't hooked up with lynz this would have never happened. I miss her...

em died 5 weeks ago. she committed suicide and it's all my fault. I hadn't been myself lately. I started drinking again and this time I have no regrets. I hadn't been doing any drugs but I've been offered by some lunatics but I don't want to get hooked. I miss her too much, I havn't spoken to lynz ever since she told me about the baby. I can't believe she's gone, her parents don't know why she committed suicide but her dad thinks it involves me...which is true...I've hardly been going out I stay in my room just laying in bed drinking and sleeping late then I usually wake up with a huge headache. I visit Em on her grave everyday. I always bring a flower but after that I stay in my room. I have nightmares about her. nightmares where she's dying in front of me and I'm just standing there doing nothing. My family was worried about me, so was my other friends Ray, Frank and Bob. we've been friends for a while now. I keep having flash backs about my time with Em, I always think about them and they still make me shed tears. the next day after I found Em in the bathroom, I was so pissed at lynz I just got home and started smashing everything in my room and threw away all my art work. I felt like nothing without her. I still feel like that....I remember when I was spying on her 15th birthday, she was wearing a beautiful outfit with a rose in her hair. And another time when she went to the movies with her friends wearing her dark blue jeans, a bright red jacket and a black tank top with some red converse. I miss all that. I was laying on my bed but for some reason I felt like getting some fresh air and decided to go on a walk. I start walking around the nearest park and lay under a big tree. I close my eyes and begin to relax until I hear a familiar voice talking to a stranger. I spy on them and it was lynz talking to some creep.

creep: "so what are you gonna do with the baby? I mean Gerard obviously doesn't want to take care of it."

lynz: *laughs* "you don't believe that Shit do you? Besides I told you already I'm not pregnant it was just an excuse so that he could dump the tramp"

creep: "wait you lied?? dude if Gerard finds out he's gonna be pissed at you! like literally!"

lynz: "ssshhh!!!keep it down you nitrod!" *sigh*

creep: "Ok sorry seriously tho he's gonna be pissed he told his girlfriend that he was gonna be a dad and she committed suicide."

lynz: "so...better dead than alive besides I have a plan, ill just tell Gerard that I lost the baby because I got pushed down the stairs."

creep: *sigh*

Gerard: "I'm sorry what was that lindsey?" I ask in an anger tone and they both stare at me with scared faces.

lindsey: "uhh-Gerard...hey baby how's it going..."

Gerard: "YOU FAKED IT!!!WHY!!WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO THAT YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME! DO YOU REALISE WHAT YOU DID TO EM!!!"

Lindsey: "no Gerard you did that to her!! I didn't say anything to her! you! you were the one that told her I was pregnant!!"

Gerard: "BUT THIS IS YOUR FAULT! YOU LIED ABOUT BEING PREGNANT JUST SO THAT I WOULD DUMP HER!... if you wern't a girl right now I would punch you to death!'

Lindsey:"IT WAS THE ONLY WAY YOU COULD'VE DUMP HER! THE REASON I DID IT WAS BECAUSE YOU BELONG WITH ME! NOT WITH HER OR ANY OTHER GIRL!"

Gerard: "no, no I don't belong with you, after what you just did I'm never speaking to you again EVER! the only person you belong with is the devil!!" I said to her and walked out of the park walking fast to my house with tears of anger in my eyes. this is the worst day ever.I started thinking of who the creep was. he looked really familiar but I didn't know who it was. after about 5 min I remembered who he was. he was the guy I hit with the pole when he tried killing em in that creepy house. isn't he supposed to be in jail??