The Paranormal Life

chapter 24:loves me...loves me not...

"you had my heart, and we'll never be world's apart

maybe in magazines, but you'll still be my star

baby cuz in the dark, you can't see shiny cars

and that's when you need me there

with you I'll always share

because, when the sun shines well shine together

told you I'll be here forever

said I'll always be your friend

took an oath, i'ma stick it out to the end

now that it's raining more than ever

know that we'll still have other

you can stand under my umbrella

you can stand under my umbrella

Ella Ella aye aye aye

under my umbrella

Ella Ella aye aye aye

under my umbrella

Ella Ella aye aye aye

under my umbrella

Ella Ella aye aye aye aye aye aye..."

ok now I know what your thinking, your thinking I chose the umbrella song cuz he's working on a umbrella academy comic but truth is, I really love that song, I pretty much grew up with that song, we stopped singing and we look in each other's eyes, he was so beautiful, it reminded me of the twilight scene when Edward was standing in the sun and he was sparkling, it was like Gerard was sparkling when he really wasn't, he bit his lip and looked at my lips then looked at my eyes, as we were 5 inches apart his phone rang. I was disappointed. he picked up his phone and it sounded like another girl on the other end, even tho I don't know her or the relationship she has with Gerard, I just felt jealous, I wanted him off the phone. my prayer had been answered he hung up and sighed, it was like he got upset, I hope he's not upset with me I mean I didn't do anything, he shoved his hands into his pockets and looked down.

Gerard's P.O.V.

I really wanted to kiss her, It was my moment to finally 'get her back' it was probably my only moment to make her change her mind from starting over, the thing is since the time when we were dating 4 years ago, I was already in love with her, and all the time I spent without her I was pretty much alone and heart broken, I was in so much pain I started drinking and doing drugs and I regret it, to be honest I stopped doing those things since the first day I saw her again wich was when I saved her from that dude. Now I'm just upset cuz I was on the phone with my old friend or as I like to say ex girlfriend, I started dating her when I was in pain I thought that I would never see Em again so I decided to move on but it really didn't help it just made things worse, her name was Lindsay but prefers lynz. I dumped her because things weren't working out and I caught her cheating. She called to let me know that she wanted me back and that she thinks that I love her but I just won't admit it and saying stuff like 'sorry' or 'i really miss you' it gets annoying.

After that call with lynz I felt really pissed off, I just wanted to punch the wall and start drinking again. I look at Em and I see here just looking at her hands with a sad face, I'm guessing she wanted to kiss me too and I guess she heard lynz on the phone."hey, what's wrong?" I asked her, "n-nothing it just, it's so quiet I mean it's like what was gonna happen earlier wasnt meant to be..." she said then continued looking down "you mean the kiss?"I ask her and she stayed quiet, she probably had her eyes filled with tears but was trying to hold them back,I grabbed her hand and kissed it "of course the kiss was meant to be, it just got interrupted by an old friend." I said to her and she was still quiet. "Em, I know it's too early for you to know but...Em I love you and I've always had." I said to her and she looked right at me, "really.." she says, "yes. Since the past years I was without I started doing some stupid Shit that I really regret." I said to her then a knock on my window came we both turned around and it was some teenage girl with beaming red eyes appeared just standing there looking really mad I didn't know who she was but I think Em did, she started panicking and came to my arms, the girl in the window started smiling and left, "who was that?" I asked her and she looked into my eyes with tears in hers. "that was one of my best friends.Her name was Carrie." she said and started sobbing into my jacket.