Piece of Mind

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by arenadomatthews

by arenadomatthews

This one is based off the song Piece of Mind by Kehlani and it'll be a more sad/angry one in a way. The song is in the media if you wanna check it out, like always

Of course you can imagine yourself and any player you want

Tryna forget all of the messages. Tryna forget all of the stressing. 'Cause damn it was (extra and-). Tryna forget all of the secondary. Feelings I had, man, it was fucking scary. Tryna get back to all my old ways. Tryna get back to all the hobbies. From my old days (getting back). Tryna forget all of the unnecessary. Thoughts from my head, man, it was pretty scary

If Tatyana could go back in time, she would have never gone to that Dodgers game with her friends. It was a July day and she had just turned 22. She was on a two week trip to LA and she wanted to have as much fun as possible.

At the game, she somehow scores an autograph, picture, and a number from Cody Bellinger, even though her friend Deileen (DeileenVazquez) is like in love with him. At first, she wasn't gonna call him but from much persistence from her friends, surprisngly from Deileen of all people, she decided to give Cody a chance.

If only she knew he was gonna play her like Booboo the fool, like he does with every other girl. If she knew that she was gonna have her heart broken so quickly and becomes so devastated that she would fall into major depression.

Luckily for her, her squad (DeileenVazquez belliseggos aaronsjudge) had her back and helped her recover from heartbreak and depression

At least I learned a thing or two about me and you. What we went through, it made me who I am (I am, I am). I can feel again, won't be numb again (numb). At least I didn't mess it up, that was all your touch. I don't miss it much, but it made me who I am (I am, I am). I can feel again, won't be dumb again (dumb)

"I'm sorry I fucked up, baby! I never meant to hurt you! I swear to God she means nothing to me!" Cody pleads through the phone.

"Oh she meant nothing to you, are you sure about that? I'm not fucking stupid Cody, I have two fucking college degrees! If she meant nothing to you, then you wouldn't have had sex with her! Who knows how many girls you fucked behind my back?" she spits back, feeling her anger rise at how dumb he thinks she is.

"Baby I swear it was only her-

"It doesn't fucking matter! You couldn't keep your dick in your pants! So I don't need this! I can find someone else who can give me exactly what you gave me and more! I can't believe I let you take my virginity, you piece of shit!" she screams, feeling herself become hysterical.

Said I'm tryna break off a piece of mind. A piece of mind that I can't get right (I can't get it right). Said I'm tryna break off a piece of mind. A piece of mind, my heart's on my side. (My heart is on my side)

As soon as she caught Cody, who she had been with for a year, in bed with another girl, she swore she would cut him off from her life. That same day, she collected all her shit and left. She couldn't believe the audacity he had, especially because she moved to LA mostly for him.

She deleted every picture of them two together from all her social medias and even sent a tweet out to confirm the split.

@Tatyanamarie96: For y'all who keep asking, yes, @Cody_Bellinger and I are done. Like history. Like you will never see me with him ever again...

She got tons of retweets, likes, and replies to the tweet. People were flooding her DMs trying to figure out what could have ended their seemingly perfect romance, if only they knew that her relationship with Cody wasn't like everyone thought it was.

You said yourself, you made me who I am. You told me that after you, I would never love again (Didn't I?). Oh you made sure that I would lose myself. So I wanna see, I needed no one else. Just tell me that I was worth a million smiles. And tell me that I was worth a million miles. And tryna make sure that I forget the times that. You made me think that I just couldn't shine, yeah

Cody was never tbe perfect boyfriend to Taty. Looking back at it, she realizes she should've left their toxic relationship, way before she discovered his infidelity. He was emotionally abusive and always made her feel like she wasn't good enough. He told her that if she ever left him, she would never be able to find someone who will love her as much as he did.

Luckily for her, she was able to find the light at the end of the tunnel and realized that their whole relationship was toxic. Their whole relationship was cancerous and it was turning Taty into a woman she hated. She was depressed and made her feel unworthy of real love. Luckily, she found all those things again after she left Cody. All she needed was her friends and family to pick her back up again.

On my side, yeah. On my side, yeah. Gotta get a little piece of mind. Gotta make sure that it feels just right. Gotta make sure that I make it last this time

Now her mission is to continue to find inner peace within herself. She doesn't need a man to make her feel wanted or special. She can find that in anybody and she certainly as hell doesn't need a man like Cody in her life to destroy her from the inside.

Said I'm tryna break off a piece of mind. (I'm tryna break off). A piece of mind that I can't get right. (Boy, that I can't get right). Said I'm tryna break off a piece of mind. A piece of mind, my heart's on my side. (My heart is on my side). (My heart's on my side-yeah, yeah)

"So how are you?" Victoria (belliseggos) asks.

"I'm better now that the cancer that is Cody Bellinger is out of my life," Taty smiles, no longer feeling the burden of that relationship on her shoulders.

"You know, Cole and I have been trying to talk some sense into him. I almost kicked his fucking ass when I found out all the shit he did to you! You're a fucking queen and you deserve someone to treat you like one! I mean look at the way Cole treats me!" Victoria replies.

One good thing came out of Taty and Cody's failed relationship, and that is the setting up of Cole Bellinger with Victoria. Taty was glad that her friend has found happiness with someone who makes her happy. Now Taty just needs to find a person like that someday and she will, it just won't be anytime soon. She's focused on herself and her career for the time being, she don't need a man to fuck that up.

So yeah this one was different and real sad, but real af. Shit like this happens on the regular for so many women. But anyway, I'll catch y'all in the next one

Taty