To Define Love (Lesbian Story)

To Define Love (Lesbian Story) Ch. 18

So, i was going to post this seperately, just to bug you guys, buttt i thought i'd be a nice person for once lmfao

Jenna's Point O View:

Chapter Eighteen:

Ink Hurts.

Her arms wrapped around me as I pulled her body closer to my own. Her lips moved desperately but softly along with mine as her hands clung to my back. I was the first to pull away; the lack of oxygen had started to make us both dizzy. My hands went around her waist as our foreheads touched gently. I swear the air around us was making me lightheaded as we stood there silently.

"Jenna... don't you think we should talk first? Before anything happens?" She barely whispered to me as she nibbled on my neck. I thought my skin was going to burn off. "Besides, I'm the one who should be begging you to take me back..." My teeth grinded against one another. I closed my eyes and bit my lower lip.

"It's not just your fault ok? God what the fuck is wrong with us?" I asked mostly to myself as I pulled away from her, my back to her now. I ran a hand through my messy dark hair as I thought to myself.

"What do you mean?" Her angel like voice came close behind me. I took a deep breath and faced her.

"This has happened twice now... the minute something amazing happens in our relationship, we fuck everything up." I could feel a tear escape from my grasp. Now I was crying in front of her... great. 'Stop being a fucking pansy.' Excuse Me? 'You obviously heard me. I mean are your thoughts deaf too?' My thoughts were shaken out of me when a hand came in contact with my cheek, whipping away the watery substance. She moved even closer now. I felt my body shiver, but not budge from the spot.

"I'm Sorry.... It is my fault though Jenna; I told you to leave. I was so scared of what my father thought that I didn't stop to realize what the most important person in my life thought." She explained as she placed butterfly kisses on my cheeks. I placed my hand over hers and kissed them.

"But... I didn't come back." She sighed and shook her head.

"Do you just want to forget it then?"

"I can forget that... but I can't believe you called our love abnormal... you don't really think that though do you? At least not then right?" I really hated how my voice had sounded at that moment... She moved away from me and started to pace slowly in thinking state of mind.

"No!" She said randomly, which actually startled me. Her hand was fumbling with her shirt as she looked elsewhere, but facing me. " A few moments ago... at the party when you were talking and stuff and when I saw you with Lily... I then realized what normal and abnormal meant." She whispered to me as she looked in the eye finally. "It's abnormal to reject something that's unstoppable... sooner or later it was going to slam into me and knock the sense into me...." Her blue eyes shimmered lightly in the dimly lit room.

"What exactly is this unstoppable force that you speak of?" I asked as I moved even closer to her. She rubbed the bridge of her nose in thought.

"That... as much as I want to be what society calls normal, what my dad wants for me, and what all those religious hypocritical idiots want for me... I'm still going to be the 17 year old Junior in high school that fell in love with you... Jenna everything reminds me of you. When I wake up from a shitty dream, I'm more depressed at the fact that you're not there with me, making me feel better and kissing my forehead. Your laugh that always brightens my day and makes me smile.... I was so scared I'd never hear it again. Songs that you and I listened to in your car remind me of you and I feel like shit every time I hear them because you're not there enjoying them with me... The colour green makes me think of your amazing coloured eyes that always held mine. I went to the park that we went to and laid under those trees... and just..." Ok... this girl was making me full on bawl my eyes out. I felt like a retarded 2 year old. 'You are retarded!' Whoa... why am I so psychotic? ' Hey!'