Forget Me Not ( Danisnotonfire )

Chapter 9

Dan went to the same Uni as I did so I kinda knew where the dorms were , I was going to live in one but they said I'd have to share with someone and yeah no .

Dan's was pretty close to the main building so it was easy to remember where it was if I ever needed to come here . Dan opened his door and peeked his head before reaching his hand in.  turning on a light and opening the door fully .

"He's not home , he'll be home in a bit " Dan stood and put his arm out signalling for me to enter . I walked in taking a good look around , there was A LOT of anime posters and pictures which I was impressed with.

"Take a seat , want something to eat?" I took a seat and absent mindedly shook my head.

"Teddi.."

I looked towards Dan who was pulling a face , I sighed , got up and searched through his fridge finding a few cherry tomatoes and popping them in my mouth.

Cherry tomatoes aren't fattening are they?

Dan smiled and pulled my shoulder in giving me a quick squeaze.

"Im proud of you Teddi" Dan said sincerly , I smiled at him and took a seat again , still chewing the remaining amount of tomato in my mouth.

"Hey have you seen Death Note ?" Dan asked thumping his fat ass next to mine on the sofa with a massive bowl of popcorn. I rolled my eyes and swallowed the last of the tomatoes.

"No, I always meant to , never got round to it " I said leaning back into the sofa pulling a cushion over my stomach.

"Guess What our plans for tonight are then ?" Dan grinned switching on the telly , I chuckled and moved a little closer to Dan ,resting my head on his shoulder , I felt Dan's breath hitch .

"What are you doing?" He asked looking down at me .

"Getting comfy , I'm guessing I'm going to be here a while , you don't mind do you, I can mo-"

"N-no , you're uh fine there ." Dan stuttered . I subtly looked up at him secretly giving him a confused look before snuggling down into his shoulder. Dan pressed play and slid down in the chair more evidently getting more comfy .

"Teddi?" Dan asked a few episodes through .

"Shhh!" I joked making Dan half smile .

I pulled a cheesy grin before sitting up and stretching " What?" I half yawned , half smiled . Dan smiled at me for a few seconds.

"Nothing". 

I rested my neck on the curviture of the sofa suddenly feeling a little sleepy . Just as I was about to doze off Dan's phone loudly went off and produced an absurdly bright light making me groan .

"Phill's not coming back til really late or not til tomorrow " Dan sighed.

"Ooh the whole dorm to ourselves What will we do " I winked at Dan , He stood up quickly turning the light back on staring down at me .

"Aah Dan What the Hell that's really bright!!" I squealed pulling the cushion over my eyes .

"How can you act like this?!" Dan said sternly , I removed the cushion slowly , What was he on about?

"What do you mean ?" I asked , shuffling so I was sitting up fully.

"The snuggling down into my shoulder , the constant flirting and ..Jesus Teddi..I can't do .." Dan trailed off rubbing his hands over his eyes.

I sat there in silence dumbfounded by What he was saying .

" I didn't think it meant anything.." I said quietly not making eye contact.

" No , of course you didn't.." Dan sighed "Its like you've completely forgotten about ..What happened !" Dan said desperately.

" I looked up at him seeing his eyes were turning a faded red colour , I stood up and walked up to him .

" Dan ...Dan I ..of course I haven't bloody forgotten that was the first time I'd done ..that , im pretty sure I'm not going to forget , " I chuckled , putting my hand on Dan's shoulder . He looked up and gave me a sad smile.

" Kiss me "

" Wha-"

Dan crashed his lips against mine forcing me backwards , this time I pulled back straight away.

" Dan don't ..please " I begged .

"Why Teddi ? I like you , fuck that I REALLY  like you, all I've thought about since kissing you that time is about when I could kiss you again.  but y-you just seemed to block it out , like it never happened ! He said is a saddened angry tone .

" And then there was the hospital , fuck Teddi I was Shit scared ! I honestly thought I was going to lose you! " He cried a tear falling down his cheek .

I felt awful . Christ there was nothing more I wanted to do but to shove him against a wall and kiss him hard. But I couldn't. 

" Teddi I ..I ..I don't know anymore "

I looked up suddenly , horror across my face .

"What d-do you m-mean? I stuttered .

Dan looked directly up into my eyes.

" Nothing..Teddi ..I just. All I want is you , and I'm always going to be still into you , I can't let this go . This feeling is not going to go away just like that .. I need to.."  Dan looked down .

"Why dont you want this..?" Dan sobbed , my heart broke in a millisecond. I felt my own self on the brim of crying .

" I do ..Dan I've never wanted anything more but .. I'm a monster Dan , i' ll only hurt you , I've got to be careful who I let in ..you mean to much to me...I ..I can't hurt you I won't hurt you. " I said ,.my heart stuck in my throat .

Dan stared up at me , disbelief in his face , " You could never hurt ne Ted, not more than now anyway .."

I cried loudly and rushed over to him pulling him into a hug.

" I've got too many problems Dan , you don't want to get involved .." I tried to reassure but Dan just shook his head. " I am involved , I want to be involved I want to help you , fix you. And you can help me Teddi , please just, don't let me go." Dan tucked my hair behind my ear and touched my soggy cheek .

" Please "

I rested my forehead against his.

" I can't Dan ..I'm sorry.."

I pulled the handle behind him and opened the door , if I didn't leave now I was just going to hurt him more . Dan pressed all his body wait on the door , making it slam.

" No Teddi. I'm not letting you ; this go , not again."

He kisses me more desperately this time making his way down my neck whilst I stood still and sobbed .

I wiped away some tears and held the back of his head.

" No Dan , sometimes , you've just got to let them go ." I tried the handle again but Dan got there first and locked the door .

"Whoever said that was an idiot " Dan said

I didn't know What to do ..

I stepped away from Dan reaching up to my head, pulling on my hair. I looked up to see Dan staring at Me.

"You're beautiful when you cry you know"  Dan smiled wiping his face .

"Wish I could say the same about you" I laughed earning a small chuckle from Dan .

Dan leant against his door, itching his neck. " It's not me you don't want to hurt is it? Its you . You don't want to be hurt again. Teddi I won't hurt you I swear , i'll never let anyone hurt you ." I looked up at Dan and walked over to him slowly lifting up his chin and kissing him softly .

Dan reacted straight away pulling me impossibly closer to him , my hand went against his chest feeling his heart pumping hard and fast.

Dan broke away smiling , " Does this mean that .."

"We'll see how it goes , but yeah ." I smiled back kissing Dan again . He pushed me down on the sofa and that's where it went from there .