•love&fear•

A long road

CHAPTER 3

CHEYENNE'S POV

I wake up by someone picking me up out of the car. I recognize the persons scent.. It's Zayn.

I don't even bother to open my eyes I'm just too tired. I wrap my arms around his neck and a bright light passes by me I look back slightly and it's a MOTEL 6 sign.

I look over to the street signs before we walk in and we are in Boston. Where I grew up but never planned on staying here for long.

Just after graduation literally 20 minutes after..

Me and J packed up and moved to New Hampshire. Our old friend Emily was supposed to come but she passed away just before graduation. Drunk driver.

My 4 year old sister also passed away, she was riding her bike and someone shot her. My mom went straight into depression and was sent to the mental hospital for suicide, she's been in there ever since me and J left the small town not so far from where me and Zayn are staying for the night. Horrible memories fill my mind and I cringe and Zayn notices I'm awake.

He hesitates before saying anything just as he's about to I guess we reach the room we are staying in and Zayn puts me down and opens the door with the card he must have gotten while I was asleep. All our stuff is already in here along with Vinny fast asleep on the second bed with all his toys sprawled out with him on the doggy bed also.

I walk to Zayns suitcase and pull out a pair of basketball shorts and switch them with the shorts I'm wearing Zayn watching me as I do. I can feel his eyes feasting on what I'm doing. I'm already wearing his champion sweatshirt so I just keep that on. I walk over to me and Zayns bed for the night and pull the blankets back, and fluff up the pillows. Zayn pulls off his SnapBack, khakis, sneakers and his green lantern sweatshirt. Leaving him in just his plaid boxers and a tshirt until he walks over to the heater and turns it up alittle and takes off his shirt.

Revealing his body covered in tattoos. I check my phone and it's 11:30 pm. I feel the bed sink in.

Zayn.

I turn to him and snuggle up to his chest.

"What were you going to say outside?" I look up at him.

"Baby I'm sorry I had to bring you so close to there.. It's just I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer." He yawns and then I do too.

"It's ok, really. I'm fine it's just a lot to take in I haven't been here in what feels like forever." I half smile at him and he kisses my forehead.

"I know it's hard.. I completely understand but we will be leaving at 6 AM tomorrow so we will get to Florida tomorrow afternoon." I smile at him.

"Can we just go visit .. Their graves" He smiles at me and I smile back.

"Are you sure your ready for that?" His smile slowly fades and his face fills with concern.

"Yea I think I'm ready." I smile and him and he smiles back.

"Ok if that's what you want we can definitely do it" I lean up to him and he leans down and we kiss slowly , softly and gently for what feels like forever with a little bit of tongue.

"I love you Cheyenne." He cups my face with his hands.

"I love you too Zayn." I give him a small kiss on the cheek.

I turn and shut off the lamp and turn back to him and I snuggle up to his chest and he moves my hair back from my face and gently rubs my forehead and temples. His motions slow and his hand drops and moves to my waist along with his other hand and I hear the light snoring I hear every night.

I smile and nuzzle my face into his neck and I hear his heartbeat.

Simply beautiful.

This boy is my life and soul. I don't know where I would be without him to be honest.. Maybe in the same place as my mom or in the cold ground with the two people that used to be my world. My laughs and my crys.

But now my life revolves around this one person that is asleep with me in his arms.

I love him .. More than maybe even possible. I drift off into a dream of the day me and J left the rotten town and finally felt free. I feel that sensation when I'm in his arms. That's why I never want to let go.