Mari Gauxiena Donovan, a sophisticated yet impatient doctor, crossed paths with Captain Jaxon Alexander Ventura because of a mission in Afghanistan that made their two different worlds collide.
She's used to saving people's lives; while he's used t...
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Song: In My Veins- Andrew Belle
Tired
Kinaumagahan ay maaga kaming pinatawag ni Jaxon. I was exhausted to even get out of bed! Kung hindi lang talaga kami minamadali hindi talaga ako tatayo sa higaan.
I sighed as I remembered how I cried myself to sleep last night when I remembered everything that happened in the past...
"No, Margaux! You will go to medical school, and you can't do anything about it! My decision is final. Subukan mong suwayin ako... hindi mo magugustohan ang gagawin ko." My father raised his voice at me.
Nagmamakaawa ako kay Daddy na hayaan akong piliin ang gusto kong kurso pero hindi niya ako hinayaan. He wants me to pursue medicine.
My siblings just watched me get scolded by our father. Even my mom can't do anything about it. Hindi nila ako maipagtanggol man lang.
All of them were scared of him. All of them don't want to start an argument with him. And on that same day, I realized that no one wants to be with me in times like this.
No one wants to save me from my problems. No one wants to tell me that...
"It's going to be alright. It will get better."
"We're here for you..."
No one...and the result...Mari Gauxiena Donovan suffered from depression.
My mom thinks I'm normal. But the truth is, I am far from it. I am far from normal. I don't even feel normal most of the time. I couldn't last a day before without breaking. I couldn't sleep at night thinking how I would overcome this problem.
Wala akong makapitan. Wala akong masabihan. I clearly have no one. Kasi wala rin namang gustong tumulong sa akin.
Going to medical school while you're suffering from depression is the hardest thing to do. As much as you want to pass your exams and focus on your studies, you just can't. Depression is stopping me from doing it.
Overthinking and anxiety sucks. That's also the reason why I failed too many times.
"Estupida, Gauxiena! May mukha ka pa talagang maihaharap sa akin pagkatapos mong bumagsak!" My dad slapped me so hard that I couldn't do anything but cry.
"Anong inuuna mo ha? Paglalandi? Paghahanap ng boyfriend?! Bawian mo 'to sa lalong madaling panahon!" Tinuro niya sa akin ang mga grades ko.
No, Dad... I'm failing because of you. You put me into this. You put me in the position where I can't do anything but follow your orders. I'm not failing because I have other things that I prioritize. Wala akong oras para doon.
Kung kaya ko lang sabihin iyon ay ginawa ko na. But then again, saying that only means that he will only hurt me again.
My mom and my siblings didn't do anything about it again. They just watched me suffer under my father. They just watched me get physically, emotionally, and mentally wrecked by him.
