Dear Umi, I love you

In Islam the most important person after your Lord (Allah) is your Mother. You should treat her with  the utmost respect and put her three times before your father. There are a lot of reasons Mothers are so important in Islam.

You see, Mothers held you in their womb for nine months. Every time we woke up in the middle of the night they would be up and ready to help you go back to sleep. Mothers love you unconditionally and look out for you. They encourage you and boast about you to their friends. 

Don’t get me wrong, Fathers pay an important role too. They were out looking for medicine while you were sick. They bought all those jumpers, socks and all those other clothes you needed to keep warm. They paid for all those delicious food your mother cooked and fed you. Both parents are important and they should be put before anyone and everyone after Allah.

There is a saying: At a mother’s feet, lies heaven. That means that if you respect your mother, never raise your voice at her, listen to her every command then surely you will enter heaven.

This story is for people which whom have doubts and worries about Islam. People who think the world is playing against them. People who (felt) feel alone in this Dunya (World).

I don't want any judgmental comments in the comment section, so please do me a big favor and don't continue reading if you are such a person. I'm not going to expect you to enjoy the story but vote if you are interested in finding out what's next.

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Dear Umi,

It’s been a long time since I have talked to you. I miss you. You have no idea how much. It feels so weird without you. The house is barely buzzing with excitement. Everybody just locks themselves inside their rooms and comes out when it’s time for salah or food.

Abu hardly talks to anyone. He yells at us for no reason. He looks at us as though we are burden of his. Do you remember how he and I were so close? You remember how we were best friends? He told me the other day that I was a disappointment, just because I wasn’t married yet. He wants me to get married soon. Umi, you remember how you made him promise not to get me married until I was twenty four. I’m twenty. I don’t know how to deal with the responsibility of marriage yet. If only you could see me now. I’m a mess. I can’t even take care of myself, how am I supposed to take care of another grown human being?

My beloved brother and sister are the most oblivious to what is going on. They think you have gone to see a relative who lives far away. That’s what the nanny told them. I was infuriated when she did so but I understand why she did it now. Oh how I would give anything to be young and oblivious as they are.

I have been so caught up in my own misery from losing you, I have forgotten about the twins. As I said before they have no idea where you are but they know something is amiss. I don’t know how to explain to them how they will never see you again. I’ve prayed Istikhara so many times. I’m so confused. I’m not getting any signs from Allah on what to do.

If only I had you back, you would know what to do. The tears are fogging my eye sight. You know how I have never been emotional. Ever since you were gone I have been an emotional train wreck.

Umi, I want to run away from it all. The misery the pain, it’s too much to deal with. I continue telling myself that I’m better off if I stay home with Abu and the twins but sometimes it’s too much to take in. All these aunties and uncles have been coming around saying bad things about you. Every time I keep defending you. I don’t know how I’m going to keep defending you when I don’t even know why you left. 

Just the other day your brother came by, Uncle Jamaal. He fought with Abu and he left with a black eye. I was too scared to talk to Abu the whole day. I don’t know what you thought you were doing when you decided to leave us but I’m sure that nothing good has come out of us. I don’t know if you will ever get these letters but if you do; I want you to know I love you always and forever.

Your loving daughter, Jassalina

A.N: Thanks for reading it means a lot, I hope you enjot the chapters to come.

Glossary:

Umi: Mum

Abu: Dad.

Salah: Means prayer.

Istikhara: Is a optional prayer. You pray this when you need special guidance from Allah