I'm going to be honest.
I'm not one you can talk to so easily.
At your worst or best,
I will stare at you sleepily.
Not because I don't care.
Not because I'm unkind.
No, I'm simply aware
Of the manifestations in my mind.
I'll watch the shadows
As they dance around you,
Reminding me of the gallows
They all fell to.
"Can you see us, my dear?
I can tell you're falling behind.
Oh yes, that fear?
It's all in your mind."
They will gaze at me
From across the room.
They laugh directly at me
And fill me with gloom.
I simply sit and stare,
My mind filled with anger.
Nobody else cares,
They believe I'm a danger.
A danger to people around me.
A danger to myself.
But what will it be
When I remove his picture from the shelf?
I'll see him in my mind.
I'll feel him in my heart.
But in a matter of time,
We will both come apart.
Fall to ashes and dirt,
Rise to shadows and dust.
I will return the hurt.
And I will destroy his lust.
His lust for my mind.
His lust for my soul.
His teeth simply grind
As he watches me grow old.
He's come once again,
And I know I'm not safe.
It will all begin
With a simple escape.
I'll escape from life,
And ditch this hell.
I'll hold the knife
That'll make me feel well.
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Apparently I have acute schizophrenia.
