This life isn't about money or status or fashion. Would you say it's about passion? I can imagine in the true sense it's about connection. Yep. You and me with everything we can see. The trouble is in complication. Dissatisfaction, where does it stem from? I don't want to die today, but I want it all to change. I'm feeling everything no repression or dissociation. It's overwhelming I realize...no that's the wrong phrase, I can assume the right thing to do it. fight the shutdown impending inside. This is an attempt.
How do you stop the tears from falling? I'm asking for a friend. Will the sky ever seem the same shade of blue? Cry from pain or relief? Pray for strength to cast your cares on Him. When you realize most of your choices were only to prove yourself, what comes next? I'm just asking for a friend.
How long does one stand in front of the mirror, as if investigating a familiar crime scene? If a hand is raised quickly I'll flinch instinctively. Accepting this reality is humiliating. But hey I was young, longing for affection, drenched in identity crisis. What's the unhealthy "recovery" from lack of self-worth? Narcissism, no strings on me. Untouchable to the outside world but in close courters complete opposite. The past sometimes makes me sick. Takes more than a moment to realize I survived, yes I'm also wiser.
If I'm honest the past is a difficult thing to let go. Type of relationship, we've been through so much. What would it take to break up? All my problems, could they really be solved in the land of reflection? Maybe if I took one more look, haven't checked all the angles. Question? How have your past habits affected the way you view reality? Yeah, sure artists are a little crazy but I'm asking where are your roots planted? If time can be accepted as an allusion stop using the past to create a delusion. Yes, accept personal fault. Don't fantasize about how it could have turned out differently. Yes, accept the pain. Don't invent 100 ways to describe it. Just once excellent will suffice. Yes, it's alright to let the past go. Learn from it, and begin to grow.
Hey best friend, take a deep breath. You must remember to breathe deeply with purpose. Let the tears fall when they come. Save the questions for later. Everything is in you needed for success. Take the steps, put forth the effort. Accept the no's with a smile, there is a lesson to learn. Sometimes the lesson is "there's no particular reason x,y,z happened." No amount of control will change the course that is set. Submit to the process but don't be a pacifist. I AM PROUD OF YOU. So very proud. You need to know this 100%. I'm also grateful you're still here, being gifted with the experience of life: Joy, pains, heartache, and elation. Savor every moment, fight against the numbness. When a creative energy comes upon you yell, "hey I'm doing something here" go into your zone. You must write fearlessly. I need your words and maybe at least one other soul does too. I honestly forgive you. Baby let the pain go. Push through it. Feel it subside, make it over that block. TRUST. LAUGH. LOVE. You're not lost, it's a new adventure. It only takes a clap of hands to change your focus. There's less than an hour until your birthday. This one is 22. Hey, look at you chin up, smile bright. Take a chance on yourself tonight. Glance at the sky several times a day. Practice mindfulness. TAKE CARE, I LOVE YOU. you beautiful crazy human. Don't be afraid to bare your soul in honesty. Honestly, that's one of your greatest strengths. BE BRAVE.
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Aperture
PoetryA single soul journeying through existence. Do you like questions more than answers? Poetry is how I process life. This book is a collection of poems over the last six years. So here's a window into my soul, and don't be afraid if you find somethin...
