all in my head || reddie / kasbrough

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currently watching annabelle rn with my mother cause i'm a scared ho,,, anyway here's the crappy first chapter:

"EVERY LITTLE GLANCE MY WAY, EVERY TIME YOU WANTED TO HANG, YOU SEEMED SO INTERESTED."

The Losers Club was currently in some random field, one they all biked to.

The whole clique looked like they were having fun, laughing and pushing each other around, Richie giving Beverly an occasional peck on the lips.

Everyone but Eddie. Eddie kept his eyes cast on the grass, ripping at the green shreds, tugging harder whenever he glanced at the happy couple.

Eddie was absolutely torn and it felt like everything was slipping away from him. He was bitter.

Bill nudged Eddie's shoulder, catching his attention.

"Hmm?" Eddie hummed as his eyebrows furrowed.

"You okay? Y-Y-You seem a little down," Bill said as he began ripping the grass along with him.

"I'm just fucking peachy, Bill," Eddie responded with a roll of his eyes.

"S-Sorry I-I was just asking," Bill quickly apologized, not meaning to upset his friend.

"No, I'm sorry," Eddie sighed, "I just.. I don't know, everything seems out of my control and I can't do anything about it. It's frustrating," he huffed.

Bill put a comforting hand on his shoulder, squeezing it lightly.

"I'm sure it's all going to work out fine," he gave a reassuring smile as Eddie slowly nodded.

Bill quickly got up and dusted the dirt off his pants and joined the others once again.

Richie looked Eddie's way and mouthed, "Are you alright?"

Eddie glared at the boy while silently telling him to shut up. Eddie didn't like when Richie gave him attention in front of everybody, it brought him feelings that he didn't want nor need. They used to be the best of friends, always hugging and smiling affectionately at each other. That all changed when Beverly and Richie became official. The two drifted apart as him and Beverly grew closer. Richie told him he was his best friend. What a joke.

Eddie could practically feel his stare. Things had changed drastically for the two. Eddie was content with Richie until it all just turned into 'a fucking shit show' as Eddie would put it.

He actually believed that he was important to Richie, the way that he would hold his hand when he was scared or focus on him whenever he was talking, but Eddie was just hoping for something that would never happen. Eddie could only laugh sourly at his stupidness while running his hand through his unruly hair.

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The day eventually came to an end and as Eddie was walking his bike back, Richie approached him.

"I miss you Eddie Spaghetti," Richie whispered as his hand mingled with Eddie's. He cringed at the nickname. It brought back too many memories for his liking. "I miss us being friends," he admitted while their hands intertwined. He naturally leaned into his touch, loving the warmth it gave him.

No.

Eddie shook his head repeatedly, refusing to put himself through this again. Richie toyed with his emotions, telling him one thing and Beverly another.

Eddie hastily ripped his palm away from Richie's and hissed, "Do not fucking touch me!"

This caught everyone's attention as all eyes were now on them.

"Eddie..." Bill started.

Tears were streaming down Eddie's face as he screamed while pointing a shaky finger at Richie, "Do not fucking touch me!" He choked back a sob as he ran into the nearest place: the sewers.

im actually sorry this chapter is all over the place smhhh ,, also i prob won't be able to post till this weekend since my teachers think im a computer and can handle all the projects tests and hw they assign!