Accidental crush [markhyuck]

Wounds

~Donghyuck's POV~

I never spoke to him again.

I never hanged with his gang again.

I can't say I never saw him again, because I did.

I saw him with his sad eyes and his broken smile, wearing a expression of remorse.

I can't say I never crushed on him again, because I did.

I wanted to get close to him, I wanted to forgive him.

But I couldn't.

However, I never saw him with Koeun again.

3 weeks passed, and I was still behaving like this. My heart was broken. My friends tried to cheer me up, they made me forget about him for a couple of hours, but then I ended up falling in the depths of sadness again.

Why? Just why did he pick me as her replacement? Why couldn't it be someone else? Why didn't he tell me how he felt towards Koeun before? Why is he making me feel miserable like this? Why couldn't I make him disappear from my mind?

Those were my everyday thoughts.

There were thousands of declined calls from Mark in my phone, thousands of ignored messages, thousands of not quite forgotten pictures together. I never called back or replied to his texts, but I did look at the pictures often. That could count as a action of masochism, nostalgia flooded my heart, having pain and hate as an aftermath.

Incoming call

Mark Lee (don't pick up)

Answer Decline

He was calling again. My finger was about to press the green button. I had the urge of picking up, but I knew I couldn't. I let it slide to the red one and pressed it quickly. As usual, he called twice again and then spammed me with messages.

New from Notasquare
Notasquare: Donghyuck

New from Notasquare
Notasquare: hyuckie

New from Notasquare
Notasquare: please

New from Notasquare
Notasquare: let me talk to you

New from Notasquare
Notasquare: are you gonna be mad at me forever?

New from Notasquare
Notasquare: ive told you how sorry i am every fucking day since youre mad at me

New from Notasquare
Notasquare: please forgive me

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Notasquare: or dont forgive me at all, but at least pick up

New from Notasquare
Notasquare: fine, i understand. Its ok if you dont wanna talk

But I wanted to talk, I wanted to fix things, I wanted to forgive him. But I wasn't strong enough.