The Reunion

Never Give In

Andy and I have been in the hospital for a few days. I called Oli to check on the kids and he said they were fine. They were acting like normal kids at this age. I heard them running around playing a game and I knew if Andy and I don't get out of here soon I am going to go crazy without my kids. I missed them and I am sure they missed me. I know for a fact that they missed Andy. Every once in a while when I talk to Oli I hear Shyanne in the background say “I miss my daddy, when is he and mommy coming home?” I want to start crying right then and there but I stay strong for Andy. He and I needed this and if it wasn’t for him I don’t think I would have made it as far as I have. He was my savior and now it’s time I was his. 

I was sitting in Andy’s room and he was asleep when the doctor came in and asked to talk to me. I asked if everything was ok. He led me out of the room so we didn’t wake Andy up.

“Mrs. Mabbit, Mr. Biersack can go home as soon as he wakes up. He is going to be fine. He just needs to be the way he was before this all happened cause I heard he did it because you guys broke up and that you both were upset about it.” He said to me. I just smiled thinking my baby, my love; my fiancée and I are going home to see our beautiful children. I knew Andy was excited about going home when I told him. 

Andy was packed and ready to go before I even called Oli to come and get us. He was so ready to be home with all of us he didn't care if he had to be taken out of the hospital in a wheel chair he was going home today one way or another. I got a call about ten minutes later from Oliver saying him and the kids were outside waiting for us, and that the kids were outside the car waiting to hug us to death. I laughed as I got Andy's stuff ready to go. 

Five minutes after I was done we arrived at the car and Andy picked up his daughter and hugged her like he was gone in a war. He knew he missed her more than anyone in the world. I am sure he would have missed her more than me if we had stayed apart. I loved him and our kids but sometimes its like I don't exist sometimes. I could be out somewhere and come home; no one even knew I had left until I said something about it.

I always knew once I had kids I would get ignored because of how cute they were but I always felt like I was alone. Like I didn't even need to be here until one of the kids needed something and then I knew I was here for a reason even if I don't know what it was. Nothing about my life was ever the same again but even with everything going on I wouldn’t change any part of it. I loved my family so much.

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When we got home Andy and Shyanne went to her room so she could show him all her new clothes and toys. Maxxy was with his dad for the month. It hurt so much to know I wasn’t going to be able to see my little boy for a whole month but Max deserved to see him at least. I went into my bedroom and fell asleep. When I woke up, I realized I was dreaming. Andy was still in his coma and wasn’t going to come out of it for a while.

It’s been a whole year since this happened. Oli has been taking good care of all of us, I am just afraid Andrew wont wake up to see his little girl start school or even graduate, get married anything. As much as I was mad at him at first I still loved the man to death. I just…I hate that Shy is going through this. Her dad not being here is taking its toll on her. She and I have both been crying ourselves to sleep. She misses her dad and I just hate how this has turned out.

Sometimes I wonder if my choices have messed up not only my life but hers and Max’s. I never meant for that to happen but I think that I have messed it up. I mean if I stayed with Max then maybe this wouldn’t be happening but I also wouldn’t be happy. I missed Andy more than anything I just wish I could talk to him. I can’t even see him because the doctors think it’s a bad idea since he is in this condition because of me. I just want to say 15 little words then I will leave. Just to tell him that I love him and to get better soon not for me but Shy.

But I can’t even see him.