Hold On

Moving Mountains

"I love you." Sebastian repeated himself as he pulled away, and he grabbed onto my hand, leading us both back into the open area of the trailer. I shook my head at him when he offered me a bottle of water from the mini fridge, because I felt that even that wouldn't stay down...

"What if I promise to tell you what's going on when you're done with work?" I handed him a replacement jacket, tossing the dirty one into the laundry pile and then helping him adjust the straps on the front. He moved his left hand up to my face, moving my hair out of my eyes, smiling as he nodded at me.

"I want you to head back to my place and get some rest. See if that helps you feel any better alright?"
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Sebastian had gotten them to send a car to take me home, and as soon as I'd walked through the front door I had immediately laid down on the couch.

I didn't exactly remember falling asleep, so when my eyes opened who knows how many hours later to find Sebastian sitting by my feet...

"Hey... you were uh... you were pretty out when I got home so I just let you sleep." He helped me sit up, and I scooted closer to him, laying my head against his chest and listening to the steady sounds of his heartbeat for a few moments. His fingers were softly moving through my hair, and occasionally he trailed them down my arm "You feel any better?" I nodded against him, pulling away and leaning my back against the couch. My hands fidgeted with each other in my lap, I was trying to stop them from shaking as I took a deep breath, preparing myself to tell Sebastian everything...

"I'm..." I hesitated, my breath catching in my throats when he took my hand into his, those bright blue eyes giving me a worried look, but he didn't say anything "Seb I'm pregnant." My heart was pounding so hard in my chest it felt like I was going to pass out, and the fact that he hadn't reacted immediately like I had played out in my mind so many times during the ride here was wearing on my nerves even more.

"You're..." He leaned forward, his hand scratching at his beard "I'm going to be a dad?" Sebastian stood up from the couch, pacing across the living room a few times before stopping right in front of me. He kneeled down on the floor, taking both of my hands into his "Were you worried about telling me? Is that what's been going on the last couple days..." His thumbs softly rubbed across my palms and I bit my bottom lip as I nodded at him "You know I love you right?"

"I know... I just..." I blinked furiously, not wanting to cry again but it was a futile attempt. The tears had already welled in the corners of my eyes and I pulled my right hand away from him, not to wipe my eyes, but to move it across the top of my shirt, my lower torso "I'm so scared." He stood up, not saying a word as he scooped me up off the couch and into his arms, gently cradling me as he walked both of us towards his bedroom "We haven't been together that long and..."

"You don't gotta be scared doll. I'm going to be here for every damn second. I promise..." He moved his hand towards my face, his thumb brushing softly across my cheek as we lay on the bed facing each other "Look I know that me saying all this isn't gonna quiet your mind, that it won't just make every little worry go away... but I love you so goddamn much. And that's never going to change. Never..."
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