Save Me - A ForthBeam Fanfic

Chapter 6

After Ming and Wayo left his room. He didn't know what to do now. He always have his friends with him every Saturday ever since the living nightmare all began. He was starting to get depressed again and he wanted his friends with him now but he can't contact them and be needy and clingy for he don't want to worry them now. And besides, they have their own lives to live. He can't hinder them just because he hates the world.

He sat on the floor with his back leaning on the bed. His knees are up to his chest and he put his arms around them. He was at it again. Remembering that day that he regrets the most. The worst part of being lied to is coming to realize that every memory you have as a child was a stupid lie.

Flashback:

"Beam honey, do you want to spend the day with me ? I heard that you got accepted at the uni as Med student. I'm so proud of you sweetie."

".........."

"Beam? Baby?"

He looked up from his book clearly annoyed of the person standing at his door.
"Why do you even care? Why now?"

"Honey, i just want you to know that I'm proud of you." The person standing by the door calmly said.

"Alright. I get it. Please leave me alone now."

"Don't you want to be with me now? Let's go to the theme park. I know you're a big boy now but i just missed when we would go -- " Beam cut her off.

"Can you stop pretending like you even care?! Please. Its really annoying. I just want to be alone. Go away."

She stepped out of the room and closed the door. She looked hurt but Beam didn't care.He just wants her out of his sight.

Spouting your stupid lies again. I know better now. Beam thought.

End of Flashback

He didn't realize that he was tearing up now. Remembering things when you're not supposed to.

Then there's that knock on the door again. He wondered if it's Mingkwan and Wayo again but even if they decide to come back, its still too soon.

Who the hell is this now??

Then he thought since the door is locked he would just pretend he's not home.

The knocking will stop if i pretend im not here.

"Ai'Beam. I know you're in there. Please open up." Said someone who knocked a moment ago.

Why is he here? Ugh. What does he want now?! Wait. How did he know I'm here?! .. Wait. Maybe.. Maybe he's just playing a trick on me saying he knows I'm here. No. I won't open.

The knocking and calling went on for about a minute. Then it stopped.

Good! He stopped. He sighed in relief. No one will disturb him now.

He leaned in his head to his knees which were wrapped by his arms. Next thing he knew, the muffled voice outside was so clear it almost sound as if the person talking was inside now. Well, he was.