Why Do You Love Me? E.D~ G.D

Chapter 23 •Need to choose•

"Kat, did you fall asleep?" I hear someone yell from the other side of the door. I groan quietly before getting up to open the door. I locked it so I can think. "No I didn't." I say as I open it. The twins are both standing there with now relieved faces.

"We didn't hear you sing after a while and thought that you fell asleep." Ethan says. I shake my head to his thoughts.

"I mean, I did close my eyes, but I knew not to fall asleep." I admit to them.

"You what? Katherine, you could've fallen asleep." Grayson says.

"But I didn't." I reply back.

"But what if you did." Ethan says more sternly.

"I didn't." I argue back. "Look, we can stand here and bicker back and forth on what could have happened, or we can watch some movies." I add.

"You're right, sorry. What do you want to watch?" They ask me. I shrug and answer. "I don't know, pick whatever you want. I'm not fussy."

"You could make it a littler easier for us." Ethan says to which I smirk.

"I know, but I'm difficult." I state.

"Don't we know it." They both mutter which makes us all laugh.

_____

"Agh! I hate this." I cry in frustration. My head is killing me and the headache makes me want to cry.

"What? What's wrong?" Grayson asks. He pulls me into a hug but I push away. "My head! It's killing me! This headache won't go away! You see these tears? I'm frustrated with my head that I want to scream, but I also want to cry. I can't! Because it'll only make my headache worse! It's been irritating me since the movie started. I just want it to go away. And now I'm mad because of my head, and I know I've said that already. AGHH!! WHY DID I HAVE TO GET INVOLVED WITH YOU TWO!!" I scream holding onto my head. It's pounding so hard right now. I've been waiting for it to die down by now and I've grown impatient.

Grayson looks at Ethan. He nods and walks over to me. "Shh, come here." He cooes, bring me into his embrace. He runs his fingers through my hair, calming me down. Soon we sit down.

"Why do your fans hate me? I didn't play with your emotions? Did I? Am I the new Emily? Is that why we were best friends? Because we could play you both." I mumble growing sleepy, not knowing that I'm thinking out loud.

He pauses his strokes before continuing. "Am I the new slut? The one who slept with both brothers because I love them both? Is this gods way of punishing me?.. Am I in love with both of you? I don't know.. maybe. But I can't admit that. I can't... ruin your bond.." I mumble.

_______

"I can't... ruin your bond.." she mumbles. My focus in on the floor as I listen to her. I think she's thinking out loud again.

"This world we live in is horrible, but great at the same time." She mumbles.

"It's great because.. I have you two in my life. Whenever I'm in your arms Ethan, I feel alive, like I'm in love again. When I'm in Graysons arms, I feel safe. I'm in love with him. I'm in love with both.. of you.." she mutters slowly.

"It's bad because I could hurt you two like you hurt me emotionally. I should let that go.. but an experience like that stays.. in my mind." She says, pointing at her head. "It's bad because it took my family away from me, it took my spirit away. It broke my soul. The only people I have is you two and Shawn now. Everyone else hates me." She says, a tear falling down her cheek.

Tears well up in my eyes too. I never knew she felt like this. I can't get annoyed and tell her to drop the subject of us beating her, that would be stupid. All of her words are making me think hard.

She's in love with both of us. We both make her feel alive and loved. I hate to do this, but she has to choose. "Ethan." Grayson says, interrupting my staring contest with the floor. I glance up at him, only to see him mirror my expression. He's thinking the same thing, I know it.

"I know Gray." I say.

"You know that whoever she chooses, it won't ruin our bond right?" Grayson says. I nod in response.

"But she doesn't have to choose." I say. He soon grows confused.

"Why?" He asks.

"Do I really need to spell it out for you? You and Katherine are great together, perfect even. You two understand each other. Heck, you two even made up your own language together." I chuckle at the last part.

"Yeah we do, but it can be a friendship thing. You two have been through way more than us. Yes we've made our own language, but you two dance weirdly when 'your' song comes on. Plus, you two do super crazy shit together, crazier than you and I." He says looking between the two of us every now and then.

"Katherine and I, we can be an awesome friendship. Graytherine is a friendship." He says. I laugh at their name.

"Graytherine? How'd you come up with that?" I laugh.

"I may have looked in the comments for it." He says sheepishly.

"What mine?" I ask curious to know the answer.

"Um, I think it's.. Etherine or.. I'm not sure. There's all kinds of names if you look in the comments." He says. I on the other hand, am laughing at our name. Etherine?

"But, we can't just make the decision for her. She's the one with the choice." Grayson says. Fair enough.

"So when do we tell her? Wait! She fell asleep!" I say, panic seeping through when I glance at her sleeping state.

"Shit." Grayson hisses. We gently shake her awake, hoping she would wake up. We sigh in relief when she smacks our faces away. "I'm trying to sleep... wait! You let me fall asleep?!" She yells sitting up. We stay silent when she smiles wide. "I CAN SLEEP! I AM CURED! PRAISE THE LORD!" She yells joyfully going to kiss the floor.

"Ew, nevermind." She says, wiping her lips after.

"Are you okay now?" Grayson asks. She looks at him confused. Does she not remember saying all those things?

"What do you mean? My headache? Oh yeah, it's still there. It just gone down. How long did I sleep?" She asks.

"20 minutes. But you said a whole bunch of stuff." I remind her. She grows confused before a look of realization took over. "Did I say my thoughts out loud?" She asks. The colour drains from her face when we nod.

"So now there is something for you to think about.." Grayson says.

"I need to choose."