Lost

Letting the World know ☘

Sam giggled next to me at the bizarre scenario which even my mad insane mind could never concoct.  Her co-workers were busy doing every required job to make me look pretty in my lacklustre state. The place buzzed with a hushed whisper of gossip and excitement. 

It was not every day a mega film star announced sudden marriage to a girl no one knew existed.

I gave him the list and saw the struggle in his eyes to fight off the pain. He was still being strong but the main dilemma for me was to make him whole enough so that as I die he won't destroy himself like he did before.

And when I told him that I wanted to feel safe even though it was ironic now since I was soon dying now he proposed marriage.

The moment was kind of that little moment of beautiful dawn in my life before the harsh sun settles in and the reality of the days kicks you.  I never thought before about getting married because I had no scope and now here I was getting married to a man I loved.

It was shocking on Jeremy's part though, instead of untangling our lives he was intertwining it further by marriage bravely accepting the fate and taking this huge step to make me his wife. Frankly, I was scared because this might have many repercussions on Jeremy and his life after me.

He, on the other hand, was busy preparing for the wedding as I sat in the boutique ready to try on a gown after gown till I found the one which will make Jeremy forget breathing or that is how girls at boutique phrased it. The little knot in my stomach kept tightening as the time came closer. Jack was walking me to the aisle surprisingly supportive of the ridiculous yet beautiful plan.

The whole dressing up process passed and the clock struck. I felt like Cinderella in that moment as I saw myself in the mirror. I was not the Maureen that I could recognise.

"I told you I will be the bridesmaid," Sam said standing next to me with her hand on my shoulder.

She gave me the pill which doctor prescribed me to have to keep the pain away.

"You look beautiful Sam," I said admiring my best friend whose life turned around thanks to Jeremy.

Apparently, he saved me more than I could ever help him.

The white gown stretched to the floor hugging my body giving a stunning shape. Somehow even though it was off shoulder it didn't make me look too thin, my collar bone was accentuated in a desirable way with a thin silver chain lying on it. My hair was in all elegant updo and a little tiara sat at the crown.

I inhaled sharply as Jack interlinked his arm with mine and opened the door.

I expected it, my mind was prepared but the flashes of the camera made me lose focus for a second. I was declared at the wife of an international superstar no one would dare make a move on me. My foster family will know exactly where I am but they can't-do a thing about it besides getting me killed which was happening on its own.

Reggie was still injured so I was not afraid, but he might send his goons after me. That was not an issue now I will be lawfully wedded wife of Jeremiah Westall and he had own set of security. Besides that, he never left me alone for a second like he was my very own bodyguard.

As Jack and Sam shielded me from cameras, the loud questions of people and the curious of how does the wife of a heartthrob looked as I walked inside the church. I thought of the moment many times whenever a character of mine got married in the book but never did I thought of how rest of the people present literally blurs from your vision as my eyes found him.

I held back a relaxed grin as Jeremy actually looked breathless for a moment as he simply just stared at me with utter adoration not caring about rest of the world. Everything fell back in place and I could finally hear the noise in the church, the colours around me as Jeremy took my hand and the knot inside me loosened.

It felt I was home after a long journey as I relaxed at his touch.

"World knows you are mine." He said and did not exaggerate as every tabloid in the world knew who I was.

I will be in limelight for some time now.

"Thank You," I whispered at the ceremony started and his eyes twinkled with delight.

In that moment there was no life and no death, no pains or broken souls, just me and him against the world. My wedding band was beautiful and so was the ring and I felt kind of indebted to him for doing all this.

"You may now kiss the bride." And even before the instructions were done Jeremy just pulled me in a for a kiss and not a gentle one either making the present people cheer.

"You look gorgeous by the way." He said but the twinkle in his eyes was gone.

It went away when death do us apart was muttered and I felt my lungs choking for air at those words.

"Please remember me like this," I mumbled back hoping that he would forget the images of me in pain and remember me like this a beautiful bride.

He smirked a cold smirk like I was mocking him.

"I will remember everything about you." He said with a bittersweet smile.

Unfortunately, I knew he would.

***

I didn't know I could love Jeremy anymore but now I know that I did. As soon as I reached home amidst his hungry kissed and constant desire to hold my hand everything was set for a Trekking tour.

"What is all this?" I asked all teary eyed.

"Honeymoon plans." He said, proud of himself.

"Jeremy," I whispered his name like a wish upon a star.

And kissed his forehead softly. I wanted to say that if I die before fulfilling all the wishes he should not be sad about it. But I don't want to spoil the happiness he was feeling. And I knew what I had to do to repay the love he was showering on me.

I didn't need a wish list, I needed a death list of things Jeremy should do after I will leave.

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Yes, I am late and I can't be sorry enough. My workload is killing me and I am getting bare minimum of 5-hour sleep :(

I hope you like this, I will be surely uploading Cursebreaker tomorrrow!

AND WAIT... have you guys checked out the Wings of Desire book teaser?