☘ "Maybe sometimes being lost is the best thing that could happen to you, because then you have nothing to lose. But for just this once I don't mind losing."
Maureen is a girl who has been on streets all her life, her life has been hard enough unt...
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If someone would ask me, are you beach person or mountain person I would always answer mountain because I liked it more than the beach. But now I am Magenta's person and she had a wish for building a sand castle.
If we think about this, the wish is lame and childish. It felt important to me for some reason. It like I wanted to do everything for her, the little things and also the miracles. The wonderful thing about feeling the love for her was that I might have become selfless, a little bit. It was not like we would agree on everything or always feel happy with each other, it was like after all the pain and troubles at the end of the day the only person I look for is her.
And you realize with time that love is not about kisses and hugs or about being happy at all times or this perfect little bubble where nothing bad happens. It's about shedding the worst part of yourself and becoming the best of you for someone you don't want to disappoint. It's about being there for good or bad.
Bad for me right now was when I saw Magenta go through a various test to know exactly how much more she can live through this pain. Her body has been exposed to too many chemicals and she was deprived of most vitamins and proteins. It made me wonder if fate was messing with me to fall in love with her, a girl who I found with all her innocence and then yelling at me in a fighting club.
She had this knack of making people love her and no sane person could avoid that trap not evening someone as life-hating as me.
"Does the beach even open at this time?" She asked with a grin intertwining her hands with mine.
It was way past normal beach opening time but being a star I didn't want her to face the same hassle and brought her at night when it officially closed.
I wanted to ask how can she be so lively even after all the things she was going through or how was she so loving even after her hard life. But I just admire my luck on finding her, finding something people don't find in their life.
She gasped as she saw the little decoration I arranged for her. Between two wooden poles sunk in the ground, fairy lights hung. There was a straw mat on the sand and a basket arranged by Ash filled with food. The wind made her tremble and bit and she giggled.
"I am suffering because of you." She said in a light tone.
"And why is that?"
"I wore this to seduce you and now I am cold." Her blatant words made me chuckle.
She was in a tank top and shorts, nothing provocative but only Magenta could think that this was seducing. Honestly, I found her seductive most of the time no matter the attire.
I took off my check shirt leaving a tee on me and wrapped it around her.
"Aww. How romantic movie star." She teased me but wrapped it tighter around herself.
Whenever I was around her I always ended helplessly staring at her like now I was. Under the moonlight she was beautiful but the most amazing part was that she was unaware how she looked in my eyes.
I was so fucking whipped with this girl that I didn't know what else to do or what I would be without her. This was harmful to both of us but obviously, I didn't give a shit.
Unlike my old self, I actually thought about a future with her, a future with kids but I didn't say it out loud.
"Will you love me even if I go through surgery and radiation and shit?" She asked with an absolutely adorable look on her face.
I will love you Magenta even if the millions of stars in the sky wage a war against me. I will love you even if turn out to be a zombie at this point.
"I am not sure, I am surrounded by beautiful actresses," I say just to tease her.
"Uh! The ones you never noticed before. Fess up Jer, you will always madly love me." She just said those words as if she could read my mind.
I just cupped her face and kissed her softly putting my feelings in that kiss.
As I pulled away, her eyes were sparkling.
"Do you think I will look fine bald?" She said and I realized she was scared of these whole process.
"You are scared? The fighter brave Magenta?"
"Fighter?" She scoffed because she was not physically strong but emotionally I haven't seen a stronger person.
"I am scared of losing you." She finally put words to her fears.
She thought I will not like her if she didn't look she did now. Only if she knew I loved her when she wore those tattered garbs. She was worried that I will leave her hand now and go.
"Do you think I can do that?" I asked her and immediate relief crossed her face.
"No." She said and I felt victorious in that moment as I realized her opinion of me was so high.
"Let's build a sand castle and get back home before my wife freezes."
She laughed at this, she loved being called as my wife and I could understand why.
And just like that as if everything was normal and there were no worries in this world we build a sand castle. The feeling of sand in between my fingers was kind of satisfying even though it slipped through my hand like the precious time right now.
Magenta was serious about this as she built a decent castle with her mould and turned it into a competition which I wanted her to win but since she would hate that I decided to be a sport. And in no time we were competing on who would make a better castle.
While obviously had nimble fingers and made a perfect sand castle mine was a mess.
"You win," I said accepting my well-deserved defeat.
"And do I get a prize." She said smirking.
"I have destroyed your innocence." I chuckled with amusement.
"I was ready to sell my soul to you way back then."
She trusted me back when I didn't trust myself.
"But you trapped my soul instead."
"I am giving my all for a chance at our love Jer, promise you will do that too." She suddenly said.
"What do you mean?" I asked feeling the worry in her tone.
"I mean hope for the best."
I know what she meant, she was stopping me from building up hopes on treatment and then see me break myself again.
"I am hoping for the best." And I gave her the best smile of encouragement that I could muster.
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Time for a reality check lovely readers.
MAX 5 chapters more to go. This story is about to end. Updates will be quick because I have already planned tons of stuff since I plan to finish this and Check list soon.
And Cursebreaker by ending of november...YEAH! Going crazy here :D
