Prince Heartless

Chapter 48:the One With The Bombass Wedding (part 2 )

He closed the doors and stood there for a while. A heavy silence fell upon the two who were left in the room.

Aairah's heart pounding by the minute as she was expecting some backlash from the prince. All she heard from him was, "sit."

His tone demanding. She didn't like it and was to argue but she knew better that she keep her trap shut. And then she waited for some more.

He turned around and she dared not look at him for she was terrified as to what she would find out.

He moved to the chest table where refreshments were kept. Poured a glass of water and went over to Aairah. "drink." was the other word she heard from him. She was desperate to hear more from him and this was killing her. Although he spoke less. The questions were many unspoken behind only those two words. Slowly but steadily she took the glass from him, careful so as to not touch him, fearing she might just get burnt. She diligently drank the water as she was taught during her 'princess lessons'.

"Speak whatever you feel right now." his tone still demanding yet polite.

"Im so sorry... But I can't marry you Hamdan." she replied taking deep breaths her voice beginning to crack.

"look at me when I talk to you... Or have you already forgotten what you were taught?"

Her eyes widened at his suddenly  rudeness. She carefully raised her head and made eye contact with his. The was a big question on his face.

"After all these days, why today? Why now? Why not when I asked you so many times before?"

Aairah didn't have any explanation for that. All she wanted to do now was apologise.

"Im sorry Hamdan but I can't. I don't think I'm fit for this life. Not fit for you or the kind of duties." she let fear takeover once more.

"what makes you think you are allowed to judge yourself that way?" his voice was firm yet polite. His eyes blank. He looked like someone who was In some sort of a formal meeting.

"i was sure of us together but I don't think I can do this anymore." was all she could get out.

There was silence but it felt small because Hamdan's eyes screamed...

"i know I've hurt you, I've disappointed you so much now... I'm sorry.

" Im not hurt, I'm crushed. I'm not disappointed I'm disheartened... "

The silence took over once more.

" do you love me? ", his question scared her.

" yes. ", she replied in a barely audible whisper.

"louder.", his voice more commanding.

"Yes!" her voice louder.

"Then I guess this is the end of us then.", he paused realizing his words himself. He looked into her eyes and knew she loved him truly. But also knew that Aairah didn't just want love. She wanted assurance she wanted trust, she wanted safety and by her idea of safety... Emotional safety. Could he give her that. He would try his best. But would that be enough?

She looked at him and he just looked back at her but his eyes were distant. He was surrounded by people he trusted and many were there to betray him as well. She knew he had trust issues with people and she knew she could give him her loyalty and love. Even if they go their separate ways she just wanted to hug him and truly apologize. But that would be a bad idea it would confuse her decision.

"I will speak to your parents as well as my father. Do not worry about the consequences. I will handle it. And I'm not angry with you... I could never be... You have the right to deny even till the last moment too. I just... " he pauses for words.