Thoughts

Why?

Blaine's P.O.V

  Kurt has been acting different he has for months I used to see his beautiful smile and his beautiful eyes that showed love and life and his laugh was intoxicating. Now I see sad eyes he puts on a fake smile and his laugh well he never laughts anymore sometimes their will be a chuckle but that's as close as I can get. Something's wrong I know there is but he won't tell me. Did he cheat on me? Of course not. No.Maybe? I just wish the lies would stop and he wears pjs to sleep and he never ever EVER lets me see him naked its nothing I haven't see before and I can't remember the last time we had sex. Is something serious going on?
    "When did this start" I said gently cleaning his cuts that were still bleeding.
"About 4 or 5 months ago" Kurt said still crying. I sighed why would he do this to himself.
"Just do it already"Kurt said tears coming faster.
"Do what sweetie"
"Break-up with me"Kurt said sobbing. I was shocked I stopped cleaing his wounds and looked up at him.
"I love you" I started he looked shocked. Why?
"Do you remember when we were in high school" he nodded to indecate he was listening.
"And do you remember our favorite movie".
"Of course Mulon Rouge" he said sniffing.
"Yes and our favorite song was come what may and we sang it to each other and even though it was a song I ment every word come what may I will love you until my dying day and even then I will die loving you so don't ever think I'm going to break-up with you" I said continuing to clean his wonds.
"Why are you doing this to yourself"I said hesitantly.
"The voices told me too"Kurt said.
"What voices"? I said actually questioning if there are ghost's in my house.
"The one's in my head the one's that tell me I'm ugly and that no one love's me and that...that"? Kurt started cying again.
"And what" I said wraping his arms up with bandages.
"And that you don't love me and the voice keeps tellling me that everytime you leave the house your cheating on me"Kurt said sobbing again. What kind of voice would say thoes things.
"No never I cheated on you once and it was the worst mistake I could have ever made I love you"
"Blaine it never shuts up it's talking to me right now and the only way for it to be quiet for at least an hour is to cut myself"he said sobbing. I pulled him into a hug kissing his forehead.
"We're gonna get you some help ok"? I said pulling him away.
"Ok" he said  and then I kissed him. He took a couple seconds to kiss back but he did then I pulled away.
"Do you want to know what's the worst part"he said. I nodded curious of what he was going to say.
"The voice sounds like you" he chocked out tears coming down his face again I moved them away with my hands.
   I didn't get any sleep that night all I could think about was Kurt and this voice. The voice sounded like me? Why me? Where did this voice come from? Will Kurt be ok?

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Sorry its short this was kind of just set up for next chapter. Sorry I  haven't been updating just writers block I write when I get an idea and lately I haven't had any so sorry.