Thoughts

Therapy

Kurt's P.O.V

   "Are you sure about this"I said as we drove to my first therapy session.
"Kurt..."Blaine said warningly
"I know I'm going I just... I don't know". Blaine grabbed my hand and I knew everything was going to be ok.

  "Ok Mr.Anderhummel do you want your husband to leave the room" the lady asked I forgot her name. I wanted to say yes but I didn't want to be mean so I looked at Blaine.
"I'll go. I'm right outside" and then he left the room.
"Ok Mr.Anderhummel let's start from the beginning".
"Well I guess I started cutting about. 4,5 months ago and I remember Blaine getting me some pant's but they didn't fit he got a size to small and even though I knew he just got a size smaller I thought I was fat. Then I thought that he thought I was way skinnyer than I am so that made me feel even more fat. Then the voice told me to start cutting so I did. So that's how it started". Oh no was I crying.

"Hmn ok when did the voice start"she asked writing in her notebook.
"Um Freshmen year of high school before I met Blaine" I said as I wiped the tears coming down my face. "The voice sounds like Blaine. It started as my mom after she died when I was 7 then after me and Blaine started to date the voice started to sound like Blaine".

She looked up from her notebook and saw I was crying and handed me a tissue. I took it and tried to stop my tears.

  "Um so what does the voice usually say" she asked hesitantly.

"That I'm fat, ugly, gross, and that Blaine doesn't deserve me"
You know I'm right.
  "And the funny part is that it would come once in awhile in high school but ever since I graduated It's constant everyday and night every hour every second" I started balling my eyes out. Don't lie you like when I tell you you're fat and gross . Tell her about the pucking.
 
  "I never told Blaine this so please don't tell him" I said looking towards the door. She nodded but I felt like she was going to tell him anyway.

"When Blaine isn't home I-I make my self throw up"

"Why" she simply asked.

"Because I'm fat" I tried to not yell but I think Blaine could hear.

"Kurt, have you noticed that your really skinny. Kurt lift up your shirt".

I gave her my best worry face she still looked at me waiting. I lifted my shirt hesitantly.

"Great now look down what do you see"she said.

"Fat. Lots and lots of fat and rolls and too much skin"I said as I looked down and silent tears rolled down my face.

"Well I see a rib cage and a boney figure. Kurt you are so under weight that I can see your rib cage". I let out a sob.

"It's not my fault THE VOICE WON'T STOP UNTILL I'M DEAD I HAVE HAD THIS VOICE IN MY HEAD SINCE SEVEN AND EVERY YEAR THE VOICE GET'S STRONGER AND MORE AND MORE CONSISTANT UNTIL IT'S EVERY SECOND OF EVERYDAY" I yelled. Telling you your fat is so exhausting I wish you would die already.

"Calm down Kurt. Listen times up for today but don't let the voice control you" I nodded as I stood up to leave.
"Oh and Mr.Anderhummel please stop cutting your skinny enough" She sighed.

"If only that easy"I wisperd exiting. I saw Blaine sitting  cute as can be playing angry birds. You don't deseve him.

"Hey just let me use the restroom and then we can go I said to Blaine.

"Ok I'll be right here" He said smiling at me. Put your fake smile on NOW. I gave him a fake smile and went to the bathroom.

BLAINE P.O.V

I saw his burning red eyes and tear streaks on his face he had been crying.

"Mr.Anderhummel"

"Oh he went to the bathroom do you need him"I asked walking is Kurt's therapists office.

"Oh no I ment you"

"It get's confusing having the same last names. So what do you need".

"Ok well Kurt didn't want me to tell you but I had to because this is serious. When your not home Kurt cut's himself but you knew that. But um he also makes himself throw up" she said hesitantly.

"He...does...what" I was so confused how did it get this bad why didn't I stop it.

"He-" she started but I cut her of.

"I know what you said. Why?". All she did was shrug.

"Everything okay babe? I'm ready to go". Kurt called from the hallway. I nodded and started to walk out.

"So next Thursday?" she called after me. I had tears threating to fall.

"Definitely"I said with a said smile then we walked to our car and drove home. I'll talk to him later.
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Sorry I didn't post for a while one word

School

So I was so busy but here is your chapter hoped you liked this. Also can you guys send me some ideas for some stories for Klaine I want to make another.

Also(i said that alread but whatever) do you guys still want the sex life I might stop writing that. I don't know where it's going ok that's all I'm done.