Thoughts

We're In Love

Blaine's P.O.V

I can't do this. Why am I the one who is always chasing?

"Blaine?"Burt called.

"Uh yeah"I said looking up at Burt.

"You ok?"He said sitting down

"I'm just tired"I said looking into my cup of coffee.

"Then go back to sleep its 6 in the morning"Burt said looking down at his watch.

"No. I'm not physically tired I'm emotionally tired"I said tearing up.

"Oh. Listen Kurt told me about what happend last night"

"Oh. I was just thinking back to the first day me and Kurt started dating and I can't help but feel like I'm the one who is chasing I'm the one who goes the extra mile for this relationship"I said looking into his eyes.

"Well this seems like a problem you should talk to your husband about".

"I know I just can't do it. I love him and I will do anything for Kurt but I just don't know what to do amymore. He's pushing me away and I don't know what I'm supposed to do to show him I love him and I'm here for him and I care I don't know what to do anymore."I said as a tear fell down my face.

"I know Kurt's going through a hard time but I don't know how I'm supposed to help".

"Well do what you do best. Write a song. Then sing it to Kurt. After that tell him what you told me and then if it goes the way you want it to he will tell you"Burt said simply.

"You know what that's not a bad idea. Thanks mr.Hummel"

"Your welcome. But how many times do I have to tell you call me Burt"He said as he stood up and went to his room.

Write a song?

I spent all day writing that song and finding the perfect tune and after 4 hours I did it. So after dinner I'll show Kurt.

"Kurt sweetie can you come here"I said sitting at my piano.

Kurt comes in looking flawless as ever."What do you want Blaine I was watching Project runway".

"Don't worry I'm hoping this is worth it. Ok so Kurt your pulling away from me"I said Kurt was about to say something but I interrupted him.

"You are. And I didn't know what to do anymore. But then I talked to Burt and he said write a song to express how I feel so I did."I said as I put the sheet music on its stand.

"So just listen and tell me what you think."

Turn song on now.

I began playing the piano.

Whether near of far.
I am always yours.
Any change in time.
We are younge again.
Lay us down
We're in love.
Lay us down
We're in love.

Kurt came and sat next to me on the piano bench. I looked at him briefly and saw his eyes were already clouded with tears.

Ohhhhhhhh.
Ohhhhhhhh.
Ohhhhhhh.
Ohhhhhhh.

In these coming years.
Many things will change.

When writing this song. I remembered before Kurt told me what was going on. We talked about having kids. And we decided that in 2 or 3 years we would get a surrogate or adopt.
I don't know if that's still on the table but I'm hoping in that time Kurt gets better because I can't loose him.

But the way I feel.
Will remain the same.
Lay us down.
We're in love.
Lay us down.
We're in love.

I glanced at Kurt to see him basically sobbing his body was shaking and no matter how much he wiped his tears they kept coming. Just glancing at him seeing him like that made my own tears fall not as bad as his but they were coming down and fast.

Ohhhh.
Ohhhhh.
Ohhhhhh.
Ohhhhhhh.

As soon as I finished he pulled me into a hug sobbing.

"God I love you"he gasped out as he hugged me.

I look up to see Burt peeking into the room looking close to tear himself. I mouthed thank you and he waved it off as nothing and walked away I'll talk to him later.

"I love you too so much it hurts Kurt"I said after I realized I hadn't said I love you back.

"But Kurt you have to talk to me"I said as I pulled him out of the hug.

"You need to stop shutting me out. I'm your husband we're supposed to tell each other everything and help each other"I said as he tried to stop himself from crying.

"I know and I'm sorry"he said looking down.

"Don't be ashamed I'm not mad I just need to know what's going on. Tell me what you need me to do"I said lifting his chin so he could look at me.

"I need you to hold me and tell me everything's going to be ok even though I know its not. And to always love me no matter what happens". He said as he started crying again.

I pulled him into a hug and he clung onto me like I was his life support.

"I will love you no matter what and Kurt it will get better you will get better and I'll be dammed if you don't."I said looking into his eyes. I saw something change in his eyes but I can't put my finger on it but I have seen it before.

"Kiss me"

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Haha. Left you on a clif hanger. Tbh I didn't mean to but I ended up doing that because this chapter is long. And I wanted to get it out tonight because I know I haven't been posting on this story.

Song: Panic! At The Disco-The end of all things.

That all bye guys.