Thoughts

A Mistake

Kurt's P.O.V

I can't keep doing this. I'm hurting him. He's my husband not my care taker. I feel like a child.

"KURT! God your always zoning out. I just asked if you wanted some breakfast. You haven't moved from the bed since you woke up that was 4 hours ago"Blaine said standing at our doorway. Say no. You don't need the fat, the carbs. I'm throwing up just thinking about it. Speaking of lets do that later.

"Uh no um I- I'm good"I said. He gave me a disappointed look.

"Come on how about some toast"I shook my head. Too many carbs.

"I'll take an apple"I said realizing he won't give up until I eat something.

"Ok"he whispered giving up.

A few hours later at therapy.

"Ahh Mr.Anderhummel nice to see you again. Today we are going to pin point why or how this voice started. I mean its obvious you have depression but depression doesn't come with a voice". I nodded not wanting to tell her the truth.

"Can you tell me why this voice came to be". I just shook my head taping my foot.

"Kurt, you forgot that I'm a therapist. I know when my clients are lying and you my friend is lying. Your taping your foot and rubbing your hands together. You didn't do that until I asked you the question"Wow she's good. I take a couple seconds to see if I trust her.

"Junior year"I whispered.

"What about it"she asked getting ready to write down what I say.

"Well it started with this douch Karofsky he kissed me. Even though he bullied me for being gay he kissed me. And that's why everyone thought that was the end that after that I transferd but nope. I stayed after school for glee club and sadly Karofsky was there and it didn't end well ".

"Hey fag how was gay club"
"Just leave me alone" I said walking into the bathroom. Bad move. Karofsky walked in after me. I ran to the family stall. Idiot. But before I could lock it Karofsky came in too.

"Just-just leave me alone"I stuttered cursing myself for showing I was scared.

"Oh I can't do that. Silly boy. Silly silly silly boy". He pushed me against the wall and smashed his lips onto me. I tried to move or push him off but he had a grip on me. I felt him grab my butt. I started to cry realizing what he was going to do.

"Mm I love the taste of my victims. Even if your the first"Karofsky said un buttoning my pants and slid them down my legs. I started to scream. I really didn't wan't my first time to be like this. He covered my mouth.

"Shush or its gonna hurt even more"he said. I was still kicking amd screaming..

"Fine. You want it to be rough. Then it'll be rough"he then pulled my underwear down.

"And he...he...then he did it"I was sobbing by the end.

"Kurt...this might be a stupid question but... Are you saying he.. Raped you"she hesitated. Still sobbing and un able to speak I nodded.

"But you can't tell Blaine. I know you told him I make myself throw up a few weeks back. But I promise I will tell him. But he has to hear it from me not you. He got mad a couple weeks ago because of that so please. I'm begging you. Will you please not tell Blaine". I was really scared she might not keep it.

"I promise I get it its hard to talk about it so it's ok I won't tell".

"Thanks.Have a good day". I waved and left and wated for Blaine to get ready to go and we left.