Sean Lew Imagines

Sean Lew Imagine #13

Trigger Warning 

Context you self-harmed and Sean finds out when he goes to therapy with you

Don't hurt yourself guys, please! I have and it doesn't help *hugs*

Disclaimer I haven't been to therapy, yet, and I don't know what it is like sorry if I get it wrong :(

My therapy is having a session where you bring your boyfriend or girlfriend, We already have days with parents or husbands and wives.   

I text Sean nervously. 

"Hey... Therapy is having a day to bring  boyfriends or girlfriends, will you come with me?" I press send, what if he says no? He knows I'm in therapy for my depression but he doesn't know about the self-harming.... What if he doesn't love me when he knows??

"Of course :) When?" Sean replies. 

"Tuesday at 4." I send the address of my councilor's office. 

"Okay, do I need to bring anything?" 

"No, everything is supplied" 

I hadn't hurt myself in a while, but I want to sometimes. Sean is one of the reasons I don't, even if he doesn't know about it. 

On Tuesday at five to 4, I sit on the bench outside, we're meant to wait for each other if we bring someone. 

Sean's mum pulls up and waves as Sean jumps out of the car and waves goodbye. 

"Hey (Y/N)" Sean says hugging me. 

"Hey, thank you for coming." I whisper, hugging him back. 

"Ready?" Sean takes my hand and opens the door as I nod. 

We walk in and take a seat. We are the youngest couple here, there is a girl my age 

Everyone else arrives and the therapist, Lucy steps forward and welcomes us. She is a youngish woman mid-thirties with brown hair and a 3-year-old son.

"Hey guys, it's nice to see so many people came to support their significant others today! Let's get started, take a piece of paper and fill out why you think your boyfriends or girlfriends are here, your name and why you came today." 

I glance at Sean as he scribbles down his answers. 

People take turns reading out their answers at the front of the group. It's a mixed group therapy. 

Soon it was Sean's turn and he smiles at me as he takes his place. 

"Hi, my name is Sean and I'm (Y/N)'s boyfriend" 

"Tell us why you think (Y/N) is here Sean" Lucy smiles encouragingly. 

"She is here for her depression..." Sean says holding eye contact with me the whole time. "And I'm here today because she asked me to come and I want to support her in everything I can." 

Sean takes a seat next to me and takes my hand again. 

"OK guys now please come up here and say what you're here for." Lucy says gesturing to the stand.

I take a turn when there are only two people left. 

"Hi, I'm (Y/N) and I am here for depression and self-harming." Sean looks at me with furrowed eyebrows, he swallows. 

"Did Sean know this (Y/N)?" Lucy asks softly. 

"No." 

"Why didn't you tell him?" Lucy asks carefully. 

"I... I didn't want to scare him away because I love him and I don't want him to leave me...." 

"How long since you hurt yourself on purpose?" 

"Um, about four months," I say with a glance at Sean. We've been dating for 7 months now. 

"How long since you wanted to?" 

"About 5 weeks now" 

"Very good, you're better then ever (Y/N)" Lucy smiles. 

Everyone claps and I take my seat. 

Sean grabs me and pulls me close, mumbling into my (y/h/c) hair. 

The session ends and Lucy turns to us all "This was great guys! we might be having another one soon, everyone in favor who isn't a member of this group, raise your hand." 

Sean raised his still holding me with the other. 

We walk outside and Sean turns me to face him.

"Never again. Promise me you will never hurt yourself again! Please..." Sean almost begs me, clutching my hands. 

"I haven't in ages Sean, partly because of you." I say softly. 

"I love you and I can't stand the thought of you hurting yourself!" Sean hugs me to him "Promise me" he says kissing my head. 

"I promise" 

THE END