Seeds Of Discord ~ A Peter Pan Fanfiction ***ON HOLD***

Chapter Nine ~ Emerging Feelings

A/N: Please listen to the above song while you read this chapter, it really helps set the atmosphere.

Antoinette's P.O.V

I knew it wouldn't be long before Pan would collect himself and come after me. I was running through bushes and trees, trying to find a place to hide.

Needless to say, lots of things were rushing through my mind. Part of me felt guilty for being so snappy with Pan. He was listening to me. Something that hadn't happened for a long time. I opened up to him, but I wasn't ready to let him in. I didn't want more heartbreak.

I ran up a slight incline and came across a small cave off to the left. It was hidden behind hanging vines, almost like a curtain. Without hesitation, I ran inside to safety. I let my body slide to the ground, panting hard trying to catch my breath. I looked around this small place. It almost looked as if someone once called this place home.

There was a small wooden table, against a wall near the back of the cave was a stone bench of some sorts, jetting out of the wall. There was a feather pillow and blankets on it, which made me conclude that it was a bed. There were clay pots strewn about the place and on top of the table was a small coconut. It was split in two with one of the sides having small holes in them. I was fascinated by this small thing, for a second I thought it might be a strainer. But then I realized that probably not very many Lost Boy's cook pasta. I looked at it again, closer this time and then I realized that it was more of a nightlight. I looked around for a candle and found the stub of one near the entrance. I grabbed it and put it inside the unique coconut. I looked for matches but I couldn't find any. Oh I see how it is, Pan wants me to use my "magic". I thought to myself. I looked really hard at the stupid candle trying to convince myself that I didn't have any special powers. But something in the back of my mind couldn't shake the thought that maybe I could do something like that. I took a deep breath and concentrated on the candle in front of me.

I pointed my hand at the coconut with the candle inside and tried to do what Pan had said. He said that I needed to channel something that would bring out the magic inside me. I tried to remember what made me light the fire last time. I remembered that I was thinking about how much I hated my life at home and how angry I was at so many people. I felt a tear roll down my face as I thought about how much of a failure I was. Suddenly, I felt heat. I looked down and saw a small flame flickering inside the coconut. I couldn't believe it. I really did light it. I really had magic. I was astounded. My whole life I was raised thinking that magic was just fairytales and make believe. But yet, this whole time I had it deep within me and I never knew.

"Looks like you finally embraced who you really are."

I heard a voice that sent chills up my spine. I whipped around to find Pan leaning up against a wall with his arms crossed, that infamous smirk on his face. I immediately put my guard up, ready to defend myself. But he just stood there, looking amused. "Pan. How did you find me?" I asked cautiously. "Oh Antoinette." Pan chuckled. "You're not a hard person to find. I assumed you would find this place." He walked closer to me and I backed up against a wall. There was nowhere for me to go and he was inches from my face. I could feel him looking, no not looking, examining me. He looked up and down at me, trying to read my face. "You have so much potential Antoinette." He told me, getting even closer to me. "You know Antoinette.. you're a rebel. Such a trouble maker." He whispered, putting both of his hands on either side of my head. I could feel his breath on my face and my heart skipped a beat. I felt my face turn red. "I should kill you..." He said in my ear. "But I just couldn't bring myself to do that." He leaned close to my face and our lips touched. I didn't do anything for a few seconds, but then I closed my eyes and kissed back.