『 thoughts 』 ✽ jenlisa

seven

JISOO'S POV

Jennie closed her eyes...

"Kim Jennie, age 21. Time of death 3:27 pm, 17th of December, 2014"

My sister... is gone... I screamed in pain, my throat getting sore from screaming and crying. My girlfriend came into the room and hugged me tightly. "She's in a better place now Jisoo. You don't have to worry about her anymore. She won't suffer and get hurt anymore. She's safe now." Nayeon managed to say in between her sobs.

I wanted to do the favor my sister asked me to do. But I can't bring myself to do it. I might give it away. I can't do it by myself. I decided to call Chaeyoung. I'm sure she'll do it for me.

LISA'S POV

Today was just like any other day. I'm still sitting on the couch, watching dramas while eating tons of food. I'm the complete opposite of the other people who went under a break-up. They cry nonstop, doesn't have the mood to eat which causes them to lose weight, and they wanted to end their life.

Well, I'm not saying that I'm not affected by the breakup. I'm really wounded right now but I chose the path of happiness rather than depression. I distracted myself by eating. I prevented myself from crying by eating. I gained a lot of weight these past few days because I basically try to forget about everything by eating.

Someone suddenly barged into my apartment. Did I leave my door unlocked..? I don't really know. I got up from the couch to check who it was. It was my best friend, Chaeyoung. She was sweating bullets and was out of breath. Her eyes are red for some reason. What happened to this girl..?

"Lisa... I-I have to g-give you something.." She panted while a few droplets of tears fell from her eyes. She handed me a letter. I don't know anyone who will possibly give me a letter. I mean, why send a letter when we have texts and emails or something?

I examined the envelope. I stood frozen in place when I recognized the penmanship at the back. Jennie... Jennie wrote this!

"To Lalisa Manoban"

How am I supposed to move on now..? I thought I was doing great but everything fell apart the moment I read my name which is written by her.

"I will leave now Lisa. Please stay strong..." Chaeyoung was acting oddly. She seems sad and hurt. Chaeyoung left my apartment and I made my way back to the living room.

"Should I read it..?" I asked myself as I stared at the letter. I guess this is important so I decided to read it. I slowly took out the letter from the envelope. My hands were shaking.

Dear Lisa,

By the time you're reading this, I already left. I went back to New Zealand to live my life to the fullest. Well, not really to the fullest. Without you with me, I'm basically incomplete. I'd be like a sock who lost its pair. Scissors with just one blade. A bow without an arrow. I'm half a heart without you, Lisa... I regret cheating on you with another girl...

And now, I want to thank you for everything you did for me. For being by my side when I needed you most. For making my frown turn upside down. For laughing with me even if there's nothing to laugh about. Thank you for being mine even though it didn't last longer than I expected. I thought we'd get married, have kids, and grow old together. I thought wrong. I ruined everything. If it wasn't for me, we would still be together by now. We would still be in each other's arms. I'm sorry for what I did Lisa. I hope you can forgive me. I still love you, Lisa. I never stopped loving you.

From the person who used to call you hers,
Kim Jennie

(p.s I'm sorry for always lying. Please don't look for me)

I was crying the whole time I was reading her letter. I know this isn't the truth. She almost had me but she gave it away at the end. I need to know the truth. I know she's still breathing the same air as me. I have to find her.