Always, Never, Forever.

A Lie

~Tessa Pov~

I felt heartbroken once Chance yelled at me.  But I knew it was only because he thought I was reminding him about me not wanting to be with him.  But I do want to be with him.  When he turned back around I couldn't help it.  I don't want to lose him completely.  But maybe that's what needs to happen.  I wont lose him completely but i'll just give him time to chill.

I walk back downstairs with tears in my eyes.  I went to get water since I had a dry throat from crying.  When I got downstairs those tears in my  eyes fell and many more with that.  Chance and Alex were kissing.  I felt heartbroken.  I know we aren't together.  But it shows just how much he want's me, which isn't a lot.  He said he liked me and would chose me, but kisses her.  

After the kiss Chance and Alex turned and saw me.  I quickly ranned to my room, wishing no one saw me, but I was just so shocked and frozen.  I locked my door and sat down in front of my bed on the floor.  It was a lie I whispered to myself.  Those words he said were only a lie.  About 2 minutes later there was a knock on my door.

"What...who is it?"  I asked stuttering because I was crying.

"Chance...can I please come in Tessa."  He asked. 

I don't respond.

"Tessa please... why are you crying I wanna know."  He ask.

"Tessa please let me in."  He asked basically begging.

I gave up because I would see him sooner or later.  I opened my door and went back to were I was sitting.  Still crying.

"What's wrong?"  He asked coming in for a hug.  I slightly pushed him away tho.

"Did I do something?"  He ask confused.  You gotta be kidding me.

"NO SHIT!  YOU JUST SAID YOU LIKED ME A LOT BUT YET YOU GO KISSING HER!  I KNOW YOU TWO ARE DATING BUT THAT JUST SHOWS YOU DON'T LIKE ME!  AND THEN YOU PUSH ME AWAY WHEN I WAS GOING TO SAY I LOVED YOU AND WANT YOU!  SO NO IM FINE IM PERFECTLY FINE!" 

 I said the last part sarcastically.  I was crying even more now.  I pulled my legs up to my head and put my head down crying.

"Just leave"  I whispered so Chance would hear."

"Tessa I..."  There was a knock at the door.

"Tessa are you ok?"  I heard Jake and Anthony ask on the other side of the door.

I took me a while to respond but I finally did.

"Im...im fine."  I stuttered.

"...ok"  They said and finally left.

"Tessa I didn't know you were.  I was just hurt and the kiss..."  He began.

"I was hurt to Chance ok."  I said mad but still tears falling down.

"But the kiss you saw.  I really thought it was you.  I was at least hoping it was.  But sadly it wasn't.  I know i'm with Alex but i'll never be able to get over you.  I always think about you and us and...  Tessa i'm not trying to hurt you."

"But you did.  Please go."  I begged.

With that he left.  Once he closed the door I let the tears I was trying to hold in while talking out.  I was crying a river.  Someone open the door and it was Erika.

"Tessa...idk what happened but, im here for you."  She said hugging me.

I just hugged her back letting all my emotions out.  I really needed that one hug.

I soon drifted off to sleep.