PhanPhone Sidestories

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Phil's Thoughts
(Yes, he's dating Dan when he thought this)

George never meant to be bad or do bad things, I know. That still doesn't excuse what he did, though. Yeah, he didn't have bad intentions, but he hurt Jeremy, and he hurt me, too. I trusted him with so much, I even ranted about Dan's behavior to him.

Dan.

I guess I kinda liked him all along, really. It's just when George appeared out of nowhere, he was so forward and charming and charismatic that I just... fell. My thoughts got clouded and fogged up with George. George and his attractiveness and kindness towards me. Dan was pushed to the back of my mind, to the point where I didn't notice him changing. Even when I did, I didn't do anything about it but tell George.

George George George.

Fuck George.

As soon as I broke up with George and I cleared things up with Dan, I absentmindedly began falling for Dan. I didn't even notice, really. I just began noticing these little things about him. His dimples. The way he laughed. His dorky awkwardness.

When I was faced with his confession, not the time he kissed me, I didn't know what to think. My mind was thrown into an uncomfortable place, and I had no idea what to think or say. I didn't even know I loved him or think I loved him, so I reacted naturally. I said no.

I saw the look of defeat on his face, but he smiled. He knew he couldn't make me love him. He began to walk away, I was feeling guilty. But then it hit me like a ton of bricks.

I did love him. I really did. I was too caught up in George George George and the aftermath of our relationship that I didn't even consider that I like Dan that way. I didn't think it possible, and even when faced with it, my vision was blurred. Not only until moments later did I put my metaphorical glasses on and see how much I really did love Dan. My best friend.

I love Dan.