Love

11. Sarang

Dear dream guy,

It has been a long time since I last saw your bright smile,
I still remember how you can smile even during the worst time in your life,
Sometimes I wondered how you always manage to stay positive when everything went wrong.

It had been a long time since I last saw your mesmerising eyes,
I still remember how bright your eyes were when you look at me,
Sometimes I wondered how with just one look from you already trapped me under your spell.

It had been a long time since I last heard your melodious voice,
I still remember how you serenaded me to calm my racing heart,
Sometimes I wondered how you be able to drag me from all my problems, It was like I was in a world where only the two of us in it.

All these memories still playing in my mind,
When we were the runaways,
When we left our footsteps on the sand,
When we made a wish as we saw a shooting star up in the sky,
When we danced in the rain,
Our late night drive,
Our promise as we looked at the bright city lights,
I wondered if you still remember them all just like me.

When loneliness came,
I reminisced each and every single moments of us,
That time when you used to hug me with your warm embrace.

When I felt like breaking down,
I remembered how you used to motivate me to stand up and be brave to face the world.

When I felt tears running down my cheeks,
I remembered how you pulled me closer to you,
My head on your chest,
You let your heartbeats soothed me without any words spoken between us.

Call me crazy, my dream guy,
Call me stupid, my dream guy,
Call me a heartbreaker, my dream guy,
Call me anything if that could make you forgive me,
And,
Laugh at me,
Mock me for not moving on,
But believe me when I said that I still miss you, truly miss you...

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"Ow!" Without any warning, the letter slipped from my grasp.

"Sorry, I wasn't looking where I was going." Someone apologised, almost making me paralysed right on the spot.

His voice.

But this time it was full of... guilt? Heartbreaking, almost.

No, it can't be!

Never!

"It's fine," I said, barely sounded like a whisper before kneeling down on the cracked pavement. Not a second did I ever found any nerve to took even the slightest peek at him.

Cause after all these suffocating days of longing and dreaming, there was one thing that I realized not to hold on for the sake of preventing all the heartbreaks. It was hope. Hope to me, was a dangerous thing. It kept you floating higher up on the clouds, thinking that everything will ended up just like your favourite fairytale. But before you know it, the gravity will pulled you straight to the Earth. Hard and harsh.

But, as my hand was just a few inches from the letter, that when I felt it. His touch, lightly brushing against mine. It was familiar in a way that I couldn't describe. Like a memory, it pulled me back to all those days. Meaningful yet bittersweet moments we spent.

No!

I was dreaming again. No way this could happen. Closing my eyes, I tried my hardest to erase every single thoughts, but my inner battle suddenly interrupted when unexpectedly he said,

"Here, your letter."