Hidden Love

Chapter 12 Jason's feeling revealed

Chapter 12  Jason’s feeling revealed

“Uh..i..just like that?” he said but it came more like a question.

“Just like that?? You call me Marie for no reason but ‘just like that’??”

“I like that name so…” he trailed off the sentence but never completed it. He looked everywhere else but not at me. He looked nervous. OMG did he actually listened everything I said. And where the hell is Suzy?? I’m really gonna kill her now after this. She’s just so…bitch. But what if Jason listened to all that and got angry at me?? No, I don’t want that.

“Marie?” his voice broke the chain of my thoughts, I was still looking at him, in his eyes searching for any clue I can get about what he was thinking. “Did you…I mean…you just said that you” now for a short instant he finally looked at me but soon turned his gaze away “umm…I have some work I’ll see you later” with this said he turned and walked away leaving me confused and a lil hurt at the same time. I kept looking at him till he walked away. My vision blurred with tears for no reason. Okay well, I don’t know but I was hurt. Because I know he heard me and he didn’t ask me but walk off without saying a word. Does that mean that he doesn’t have feelings for me like I do.

No, you stupid. You were the one who interrupted him because you can’t keep your shit of a mouth shut.

My inner voice said me. Did I really did that??

Oh yes, you did!!!

Huh!! I sighed at my own stupidity and cried kneeling down on the sand.

JASON’S POV

She was staring at me, directly in my eyes which made me nervous.

This girl drives me crazy. My thinking ability just goes down the hill when she’s around me. I have always been a responsible one, who knows what exactly I should be doing, bold and straight forward. But around her I’m not who I am. It’s different. I know I’m very bad at expressing my feelings, my emotions but being nervous? It’s just not me.

I know I’m always quiet, but there is a reason behind it. After that day, that particular day I felt like I have had enough. So, I made a vow that I won’t get attached too much to anyone in anyway, because at the end that person will always go away leaving me behind them broken and all alone. Everyone I truly loved always left me alone all by myself in tears. First my Grand ma then my favorite aunt to whom I was the closest even more than my mother. Then my best friend at the age of eleven. Lastly my father.

Even Marie was one of them, not exactly but in a way, yeah. I never thought in my wildest dream that she would ever come back or I can see her again. Yeah, sure I wanted it so badly and I thought I lost her. I never thought she would come, not only that but would actually talk to me or would consider me as a friend. I missed her so much. All these years I thought she must have changed but no she’s still that same sweet, Marie; I adored so much. She’s still the same, getting angry and fighting with the one who teases her. Like the day we first met, and now here’s the day she’s angry and fights with Mason because he teases her…see still the same. Getting overly excited, loving rain, pretends that she’s all so brave but is actually so scared from inside, confused, tells or does something stupid when she’s scared or nervous, becomes happy with little things…you know you don’t have to do something big to make her happy just a small gesture or a sweet little thing would make her the worlds happiest girl, and what not. I just love all those little things about her.

Last night when she asked me why I changed, it made me happy because it showed that she cared. I was overwhelmed when she offered to be my friend. I was unsure what to do, I stared at her unbelieving what my eyes were seeing and my ears were hearing. It may be a little thing for you but to me it was so much. Sure I had a few friends when I was young but later I had so much going on in my life that I had no time to actually sit and chat with someone. Or chill out with friends like all the other people my age did.