never mind

trivial things

Yoongi was still silent and namjoon didn't want to pressure him.

He'll just keep on being physically there for his friend, until his friend decided otherwise. He only hoped that his embrace helped in some way or another.

Suddenly Suga fidgeted and finally opened his mouth to let something other than a sob out:

" When did you move houses"

"What, you mean the date?"

"yeah"

" i don't know exactly, but it was in the spring, no? Why?"

"i meant the year"

" oh, two years ago. Are you okay yoongi? Maybe you should take a break from your job huh? It looks like it's stressing you out a lot, if you forgot this."

"You think, so? Does stress really make you forget?"

" well, yeah... it happens, stress does make you forgetful. If you have a lot on your mind your mind tends to neglect trivial matters"

"trivial?"

" yeah... insignificant things"

" i see..." and with that the conversation seems to have come to a halt.

Yoongi furrowed his eyebrows like he was contemplating something, and namjoon let him. He'll let yoongi set the pace here. Whatever Yoongi wanted to do, namjoon would follow, whatever Yoongi wanted to discuss, Namjoon will entertain him until they he was ready to address the elephant in the room.

Yoongi sipped on his tee while examining the room, seeming lost in his thoughts until he had an empty cup between his hands.

He set the cup on the table, then turned his face towards namjoon and opened his mouth but nothing came out.

Namjoon just waited patiently and gave him what he hoped is an encouraging smile.

Yoongi's eyes seemed to look everywhere but namjoon's eyes and he mumbled something that namjoon couldn't catch.

"huh?"

" what about my life?"

" what?" Namjoon couldn't comprehend what his friend meant.

"i meant" yoongi was playing with his sleeves while still avoiding eyes-contact with his friend" what about the last 4 years of my life"

"what about it?" Namjoon was confused now.

"do you think it's,... is it?" and yoongi let a sight " do you think it's insignificant?" and he finally looked namjoon in the eyes " to me, I mean. Do you think the last 4 years fall into the trivial category?"

" what? No! Why would you think that? What is going on Yoongi? I thought you didn't care what the haters said. What brought this on?"

" so, you don't think that's the case?"

"what?"

"focus Namjoon!" and Yoongi was sighing in exasperation. Well at least it looks like the old Yoongi is back and he's normal again. " you don't think I consider the last 4 years of my life trivial"

" no, I don't. now can you please mybe tell me what's going on? You're kinda worrying me"

" then what could be the reason, you're smart"

" are you listening to me? What is going on? The reason for what yoongi"

" you don't think stress would make me forget a period of my life so what could?"

" I don't know! I don't care?! why are you suddenly interested in this ? what the hell is going on?"

"exactly that"

"what?"

" so, I'm married to jimin right?" yoongi said with a blank expression

"yeah" to say namjoon was lost, is an understatement.

" and I woke up today with a stranger that I married"

" you weren't kidding? Is this why you're having a crisis?"

"the stranger is jimin"

"What?"

"jimin is around my height, with thick thighs, cute chubby hands , squeezable cheeks and pink hair right?"

" yeah?"

" yep, jimin is the stranger"

"yoongi, you're not making any sens"

" that's what happened though. I don't remember him"

"who?"

"jimin. You're kinda slow with how smart you're supposed to be"

" what do you mean you don't remember jimin"

" not just him... I don't remember anything from the last 4 years. I woke up with a headache thinking it's April the 12th 2013, turns out it's 2017"

" you're kidding right?"

"i wish"

"fuck!"

At that Yoongi chuckled: " yeah... fuck"

"so, you have amnesia?"

"that's what jimin said"

"why were you at that alley hyung?"

" I ran away"

"from who?"

"jimin?"

"why?"

"i don't know namjoon? Maybe because to me he's a stranger claiming to be my husband? I didn't felt safe there and my first instinct was to escape"

At that namjoon took his phone and Yoongi narrowed his eyes:" what do you think you're doing?"

"i'm just going to text him"

"what? No! I don't want to see him yet"

"why?"

"i'm not comfortable"

"but you have to face him... a-" but Yoongi interrupted him.

" I know, I know. Just, not now... I uh I need some time to process all this"

"fine, but I'm still texting to tell him you're okay. I'll tell him to give you time"

At that Yoongi gave hima grateful smile and whispered a thank you.

"so... what now?"

"i don't know. Should I call hobi?"

"No!" shouted Yoongi, so namjoon looked at him surprised.

"it's 2013 for me" Yoongi said like it explained everything. When Namjoon still looked perplexed Yoongi said with a sigh:" I'm in love with him Namjoon"

"oh"

"yep, oh" yoongi repeated. " and you know what else? I just told my husband. Best husband of the year I tell you" and he let a dry laugh out.

" at least you didn't really marry a stranger in your anniversary?" Namjoon said trying to light up the atmosphere.

"what am I going to do now?"

" shouldn't you see a doctor?"

" a psychiatrist?"

" maybe you should go to the ER and they'll tell you? I'm not sure... it sounds like it's an emergency to me"

" yeah you're right"

" well, come on now"

" what? You're coming too?"

" of course, I'm not leaving you alone"

"i can go alone. I just forgot somethings, I'm not hopeless"

"you didn't 'just forget somethings', you have amnesia, I'm driving you. Come on"

Why am i still posting this here?