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"Where the fuck have you been?"

Lisa winces at the tone, cursing mentally as shes not even fully in the house yet and Namjoon is already scolding. Imagine what more would happen once she makes it to the living room.

She slowly closes the door, looking up slightly to see Bambam there too, sitting at the couch. He has a calm look on his face, and that scares the hell out of Lisa.

You'd think she's not scared of anything, but honestly, theres one thing

"Out."

"Out?" The tone in Namjoon's voice is challenging, serious. The kind that only happened once before.

Lisa would rather not remember the memory.

"I did a... mission."

"A mission?" Now that is Bambam, and Lisa feels like all the times she said she was annoyed of Bambam's giddy personality is biting her in the butt, since right now all she wants is that kind of her friend back.

"Remember that guy from the bar? The one who attacked?"

A hum in response.

"I found out that he was a cop, investigating about us so I had to do something. He already had something on you, joon, and he has bam's last name. it wasnt much but something is still something so i needed to get rid of those."

"What?" Namjoon asks. "Why you didnt ask help from us then? Or tell us about it?"

"You all had your days off yesterday right? Didnt have the heart to bother you." Lisa answered limitedly.

"Couldnt it wait until today?"

"No, today's when he's supposed to report his progress. I know, we have connections inside the department, remember?"

Bambam slowly nods, turning to look at Namjoon who seems calmer already.

"Im sorry for snapping at you," Namjoon smiles sadly. "We were just really worried."

Lisa nods, releasing a breath. "I know."

"But wait," Bambam starts. "You couldnt have done that alone. Who helped you then?"

okay so Bambam's intelligence is incredibly helpful in their lives but damn, sometimes lisa just wants it to take a vacation.

"Lisa." Namjoon's tone is just plain worried this time, without a touch of accusation.

well then.

"I asked help from the Carters."

The atmosphere is heavy with tension, and what's making it more hard is the fact that she knows its because of her.

"Say that again."

"I asked help," she closes her eyes. "from the carters."

silence.

"The fuck did you do?!"

Lisa rubs her face with her hands and gets ready for a swarm of anger coming.

"We had one rule, Lalice! Its to not get involved with those sons of bitches but there you were, asking from help when theres a shitload of options out there."

She lets it hit her, words like bricks, cause she knows she deserves them.

"For the love of-," Bambam messes his hair out of frustration. "Those guys will think we owe them something now. What were you thinking?! something as simple as this and you go to them? youre treating a small thing like its a big deal!"

"Me."

"What?"

"Just me," Lisa says, louder this time. "I owe them, youre not involved in this."

"Well shit then," Namjoon spats. "We're a fucking family so your problem is ours."

"Tell us what happened exactly or I swear im going to lose my mind."

"Two of their guys pretended to follow Jungkook, the cop, and I was on the look out to act as if im saving him or something." Lisa explains. "While I was stalling Jungkook those guys who was pretending to follow him broke into his house and got the files. We met up after. Thats it."

Namjoon sighs, shaking his head.

"You shouldnt have done that."

"I had no choice."

Bambam scoffs, "The hell you mean?"

And then Lisa feels anger bubble up inside her.

"You have no right to get mad at me!" She suddenly blurted out, anger clouding her mind. She fumbles to get the files off her bag and threw it at the guys.

"He has a footage of you two, with our book, and he knows about the club, about ranch randa and piya, and no matter how small those informations are, once it gets out, people will be interested, and we are done for. I dont know why he hasnt even put the pieces together yet but right now, im thankful to what or whoever's distracting him."

"Lis," bambam pleads, "i get the point but now those guys know about that Jungkook person and you know theyll come after him for whatever purpose that favors them. You got him in trouble."

Its her turn to scoff, "Couldnt care less about that guy. Plus, wouldnt that be a good thing? One problem out of the way."

"Lisa, what are you even saying." Namjoon sighs. "Youre not this selfish. He was just doing his job."

"Yeah, and I was too. I was doing my job as your friend," She says, her hands in fists, "Or as you said; family."

She looks at them coldly then, hurt on her eyes.

"I did that for you guys."

Lisa begins to walk away, but before completely disappering, she stops on her tracks and looks at the boys over her shoulder.

"And yes, Im not selfish, but I am when it comes to you guys, when it comes to this family since its all I have. I cant let them take that away too.

"So im fucking sorry if thats such a bad thing to do."

With that, she walks upstairs, slamming her door shut once she got in.

And lets herself cry for the second time that day.

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