I hate/love Harry Styles

10. Complications

Nicole's POV

I woke up confused. What happened yesterday? We kissed. But what am I supposed to do now? How can I act around him after that? I'm so confused. Why did he kiss me? How does he feel about me? How do I feel about him? I don't even know if I like him. Then why did I kiss him? So many questions...The only way to get some answers is to wake up, get out of the bed, go to work and see what's going to happen. Exactly. That's what I'm going to do. Let things to happen. About one thing I was absolutely positive: we're not together. He's not my boyfriend, and I'm not his girlfriend. Then what are we? I should stop asking questions when I know I won't get answers from myself...

I quickly took a shower and got dressed. Luckily, the weather was finally good. So I picked a red short and a white fashionable top. I straigthened my hair, a little make up and I was ready. Now let's face with the problems!

I went downstairs. Kevin and dad were already eating. I took a toast and a glass of orange juice and sat down next to them. They were grining like idiots.

"What?" I asked confused.

"Soo..you don't want to tell us something?" My dad asked smiling

"Uhm..no" I said simply, smiling at them. The smile dissapeared from their faces. How could I tell them anything when I don't even know what happened. I washed the dishes, then we went out of the house. I put my headphones on and I listened to some music. It helped me to forget anything for a little while. Adele, Coldplay, Robbie Williams...They are amazing.

"Nicole, we're here!" My dad said, waking me up from my trans. So we're here. Great. I have to options: 1. I got out of the car, running home or 2. I face with Harry. I won't be weak, I'll never be so I choose the second one, evens though I would want to kill myself in every moment.

We got out of the car, walking to the entrance. It's only 2 days until the concert. The boys have some rehearsal today. We went inside. My dad went to talk to some peaople like he usually does. Kevin went to his favourite place: he sot down on the couch, playing with his PSP player. I have no ideea what can he ejnoy so much on it. I walked near the stage, then I saw them. The boys were on stage, starting to sing what makes you beautifull. I almost begin to like their songs. Almost... They were damn good again. Louis was funny himself as always. I couldn't stop laughing. He was dancing like a maniac. He got some funny moves. Like he pets a dog...Weird... The song finished, and they quickly ran towards me. Louis was the first who reached me. He hugged me thight and spun me around. I was laughing like an idiot. Then he luckily put me down on my feet.

"Boys you were amazing again. I actually begin to like your songs" I said, showing thumbs up with my fingers. They laughed.

"Thank you, love. It means a lot" Liam said. I smiled at him. I didn't look at Harry. I just couldn't. But from the corner of my eyes I saw him, looking at me. I took a deep breath and looked at him. He was smiling. A happy smile. I couldn't help but smile back. 

"Love is in the air..." Louis started to sing, grining at me and Harry. My jaw dropped. I quickly punched Louis on his stomach, shutting him up.

"Well, I go to eat something. They didn't let me to eat my breakfast." I lied, looking at the ground. I had to get out of there. Beeing near Harry was awkward. I really hope that this gonna end soon. I don't know how much I can take. I turned around to walk away. Then I felt a hand on my arm. I turned around to see Harry, smiling. Why is he always doing this? He always grabs my arm, doesn't he? Weird...

"What?" I asked confused.

"I just wanted to..."He began, running his hand through his curls.

"Harry! Oh I finally find you. I missed you" A female voice interrupted him. Then a tall, light brown haired woman tip toed with her heels and kissed Harry. I have to say, I was pretty shocked.

"Ca-Caroline. What a surprise. What are you doing here?" Harry asked confused. He didn't seem too happy.

"Well, I heard that you're here so I stopped by. You didn't call me back yesterday. why?" She asked annoyed. That was it. That was the moment when I needed fresh air.

"Excuse me, but I have to go" I said, faking a smile. I didn't even look at Harry, or at that woman. I just needed to ge out of there. 

"Nicole" I heard Harry shouting, but I didn't look back. I just headed towards the exit. It was behing the arena,a quiet and peacefull place. Just what I needed. I just stood there, staring in front of me. I held back my tears. I won't cry for someone like Harry. I knew I couldn't trust him. He was with me, he kissed me while he has a girlfriend. I was angry, upset, dissapointed, but nod sad. And that was good.

"Nicole" I heard another familiar voice. It was luckily Liam.

"Liam" I sighed. He ran towards me, hugging me tight. I needed this hug. It helped me a lot. 

"Are you okay?" Liam asked concerned, looking in my eyes.

"Yes. I'm good" I said weakly. I still held back the tears.

"You saw Carilone, right? Nicole you need to know that Harry has already br..." He began. I interrupted him.

"Liam, it's okay. I got it. He has a grilfriend and that's fine. He's independent. He can do what he wants. " I said slowly. That was true. We're not together. The only thing that upsets me is that I went out wtih him and he didn't tell a word about his girlfriend. And of course the kiss...

"No, Nicole. Listen..." He started again.

"Nicole!" I heard Harry's voice. Oh, he's the last person I want to talk right now. Here comes the usually 'I'm sorry, we can still be friends' speech. Liam let go of me, nodding at Harry. Liam looked at me one las time, then he walked away. He was such a good friend and person. I wanted to go back with him, but Harry jumped in front of me, blocking my way. 

"Harry, please let me go" I said slowly.

"No until I explain this" He said calmly.

"You don't need to explain anything, really. We had a good night, but you have a girlfriend. You can calm down, I won't tell her anything. Now, please" I said, not looking at him.

"No Nicole. Listen to me." He said seriously, putting his hands on my shoulder. "Nicole is not my girlfriend. We used to date, but it's over. She still thought that she can be with me, but I don't want to be with her. I told her this again, and now she's gone. I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier, but I wasn't expecting to see her again." He said, looking straight in my eyes. I know he's being honest. I feel it.

"You done?" I asked slowly, calmly.

"Y-Yes" He said confused.

"Then, I'm going back inside" I didn't look at him. I went inside, thinking about all these. I believed him without hesitation. But I don't know if I could trust him. I still don't know how he feels about me. Probably I'm just a friend. That's why I need to keep the distance. I should end this here before it could really began.

"Nicole!" I heard Liam's voice. He's probably my only friend here.

"Hey!" I said.

"Did you talk to Harry?"He asked concerned.

"Yes" I nodded slowly.

"And?" He asked confused.

"And what? I let him explain the whole Caroline situation, then I walked away. I think I go home now" I told him.

"Nicole, trust me. Harry told you the truth. He doesn't lie" He said. He's such an amazing friend.

"I believe you. I believed him too. But I should go now. See you later, Liam!" I said and I walked away. Keeping that distance will be harder than I thought...

A/N: Sorry for the short chapter. The next one will be longer and more eventfull I promise. ;) I'm looking forward to it. Please keep reading. Vote, comment, fan. It means a lot. When I saw that you voted and wrote a comment, I swear I was screaming like an idiot. Loove you guys! Julia xx