I hate/love Harry Styles

16. Jealousy

Nicole's POV

After a couple of minutes I could finally collect enough strength to go inside and face with Harry and with everything. When I stepped in, Harry was no where to be seen. Thank God! The others greeted me with big grins. I said a quick hello to everybody and I made my way upstairs to my room. When I was alone I layed down on my bed and started thinking about everything. Again. I think this is my destiny, to always be confused. How awsome...

"Can I come in?" I heard a soft voice. I turned my head towards the door and I saw Eleanor.

"Of course" I said smiling. She came closer, sitting down  on my bed in front of me.

"Everythings alright?" She asked, sounding concerned.

"Yes, I think...why?"

"Because you seemed desperate when you came home. Did Harry do something wrong?" She asked.

"No, no. He was really kind and nice. Surprisingly" Eleanor chuckled at this comment. I hide my smile away, however, I wanted to laugh. "It's just me. I'm so confused and...I just...I don't know" I admitted looking down.

"Hey, it's okay. I understand you. You just need to figure everything out. You have to be sure in yourself and in Harry too. When you are ready, I'm sure everything will be clear."

"Do you really think that?"

"I'm positive. And one more thing: try  see and think with your heart too, not just with your head. It helped me find Louis, I'm sure it will help you too." She smiled at me, trying to calm me down. Oh..it's easy to say. But with Harry it's everything different. How can I trust him? How can I ever trust again in people?

"Thank you Eleanor, I promise will try. It's just not that simple sometimes.."

"I know, I know..but don't let the past steal your present and destroy your future." She's right. She's so so right. That's exactly what I'm doing. Holding my past, not giving a chance to my future.

Eleanor smiled at me onc again, then she stood up and went out of my room, leaving me alone with my thoughts. I decided to take a shower and got changed. I picked a white short and a red oversized top which went down on my right shoulder. I put my long hair up in a ponytail and I headed down to the living room. The sun already went down, so everybody was just chilling, watching TVs, drinking beers. Oh-oh..that's gonna be an interesting night.

"Heey Nicole! Want a beer?" Niall asked me as he saw me coming downstairs.

"No, thank you Niall. I don't drink"

"And neither should you more, Niall" I heard Liam's voice from behind me. I chuckled at his comment.

"Hello Nicole" Liam said smiling at me. It looks like he's sober.

"Hi Liam. You don't drink?" I asked confused.

"No. I never drink"

"Well, that's good"

"So, can we talk now?" He asked concerned. Then I realised what he meant. Yesterday I told him I will explain everything later. I guess later is now. I just nodded and he took my hand, leading me to the terace. It wasn't cold out there, actually the weather was just pleasing.

"So, tell me" Liam said, looking straight in my eyes. 

"It's not a big deal. I'm just confused. I was confused yesterday too and it's hard to figure myself out.." I admitted.

"It's about Harry, isn't it?"

"Is it that obvious?" 

"Well, I know Harry and I can see you around him. Both of you act different when you see each other.    You have to be blind not to see it" He said chuckling.