I hate/love Harry Styles

15. Questions

Nicole's POV

"Nicole!" I heard Zayn's voice from the living room. We had already come back from the beach so the boys decided to watch a film. I still tried to ignore Harry as much as I just could.

"Yes?" I asked him.

"You're watching the film with us,right?" He asked. Oh..I can't say no.

"Sure" I answered smiling. Liam was alone on the couch, so I quickly sat near him. At least he's nice and not a big jerk. Liam greeted me with a smiled and put his arm around my shoulder.

"Everything's ok?" He asked quietly, so the others couldn't hear our conversation. I didn't look at him, I just nodded.

"You're lying" He whispered. I chuckled. 

"Everything's fine Liam. I'll be ok" I looked at him, reasurring him not to  worry about me.

"Wanna talk about it?" 

"Later" I said. He nodded in agreement.

Niall, Eleanor and Harry were in the kitchen, making popcorns. Louis was looking for some films, while Zayn, Liam and I were sitting on the couch. Thankfully Harry couldn't sat near me. At least I don't have to talk to him.

"So, what are we going to watch?" Niall asked Louis.

"Dead silence?" Louis asked excitedly.

"Louis, you know I'm affraid of horror films" Eleanor came to him from the kitchen. Louis kissed her softly.

"I know, but Zayn wants to watch a horror film tonight. And I'm gonna be beside you, love" He told her. Eleanor nodded, going back to the kitchen. I couldn't stop watching them. They were so cute. They are really, really lucky..

Finally, the others came to the living room with the popcorn, sitting down on the couch. I felt Harry's gaze on my face, but I didn't look at him. He sat down next to Niall on the floor. 

The film started. Firstly, I could handle the scary parts well, but after that, it became really scary. I couldn't watch anymore, so I just burried my face on my hands. Suddenly I felt an arm pulling me closer to a warm chest. I looked up and I saw Liam smiling down at me. I smiled at him too, mumbling a 'thanks'. Then I looked at Harry. He was watching me. Us. His face was motionless. I hope he doesn't think that I like Liam...

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This is one of my worst night ever. It's almost 3 AM and I couldn't sleep anything. Guess why can't I sleep? Because of Harry, of course. He's such a jerk. He really is. Why is he toying with me? I would like to scream and hide away from everything,  but I'm gonna play cool. I have to play cool. Harry can't win. Not against me, not like this..

After the film, I went straight into my room. I wanted to think about the whole situation. Well it looks like I can't stop thinking since then and I'm still confused. I don't like Harry, how can I? But then why I wanted to kiss him so badly? Everything is horrible. That's exactly why I didn't want to come here with them. I knew exactly that this gonna happen. Now I'm here, stuck in my room AT 3 AM(!!) and I'm confused. It's insane. I can't like Harry, in fact I hate him right now. But still... It really doesn't matter. Even if I liked him, I wouldn't do anything. Life is not a fairytale, the famous superstar won't  fall in love with you just like in the movies. No, life is tougher then that. That's why I won't keep dreaming. He's going to live his fabulous life, so am I, my simple, ordinary, complicated life.

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"Nicole! Nicole" I heard a soft voice. Am i still dreaming?

"Nicole! Wake up, beautifull" I heard again. I slowly opened my eyes. Oh, I wish I didn't do that. Seeing Harry's smiling face in front of me is definitely not a good start of a day. Oh boy...