Do you ever feel sad? Alone? Insecure? Like no one cares about you? Like the whole world is against you? Don't worry! Everyone feels that way sometimes! In this book are comforting verses, awesome songs, and helpful messages that will help yo...
Hey guys! So sorry I haven't posted in a while! I temporarily took a break from Wattpad, and then completely forgot about this book!
Since April, I've undergone a lot of spiritual development. I literally mark April 16th, 2017, the day I posted "Easter Sunday" as my spiritual birthday. All of a sudden, I could literally feel Jesus's presence around me. It had never happened to me before then. I mean, I loved Jesus, and I believed in him, but I had never had such a close connection and relationship with Him that I could actually feel his presence around me. It was incredible. The most wonderful, beautiful, amazing feeling I have ever felt, and will ever feel. I wish so desperately that I could feel it overwhelming me every second of every day of this life. Even now, when I have a strong connection with the Lord, I cannot literally feel His presence around me. I'm too busy, too preoccupied with school, extra curriculars, and life.
It was incredible. For the first time, I woke up every morning, simply happy, simply content. Just full of peace and joy. That hadn't ever happened to me before. I was always happy because of something, worried because of something, sad because of something, stressed because of something. I was never just truly joyful for no reason at all. I felt completely joyful, content, and confident, all throughout school, when I would normally feel anxious, annoyed, stressed, and just full of negative emotions. I felt like I was floating above the ground. I could feel the Lord looking down on me, smiling. For the first time in my life, I was simply happy that I had lived to see another day. For the first time in my life, Jesus was my everything. He was the only thing I lived for. The thing I looked forward to the most wasn't hanging out with friends, or even writing fanfiction on Wattpad. It was spending time with Jesus. For the first time I my life, I felt what it was to be born again.
Then, not 2 weeks later, my parents almost got divorced. It was horrible. But through the storm, I grew closer to Jesus. Every minute outside of school was in my room, reading my bible. I got to spend more time with him; got to strengthen my relationship with Jesus. And I also learned some important messages. Eventually, after one horrible week, of screaming, hitting, slamming doors, talks about who I wanted to live with, house shopping, and looking for lawyers, God saved me. He took away my suffering and gave me peace. My parents suddenly made up.
In June, I went on a houseboats trip on the Delta river. This is where my youth group and I live on a houseboat, swim everyday, play games, jump off the roof, go banana boating, water skiing, and sleep under the stars for a week. I was super excited. But a week before the trip, one of my closest friends told me she couldn't go.
The week was horrible. I didn't know everyone else very well. I was excluded and shoved aside in everything. I felt so left out. I came home crying. I wondered why God was so cruel- why he ruined the best youth group trip of the year.
A month later, I was invited to go on junior high houseboats. It was a miracle. My best guy friend went. I got to get to know a super nice girl, who was the other leader. It was amazing. I had a time just as wonderful as the year before.
Even when you think the world is crumbling around you, and nothing is going your way, just know that God always has a plan. He does all things for the good of those who love Him. He is always there for you, and he will always come through. He will take away your suffering and give you peace. You just have to trust Him.
I heard this story on K-Love the other day. It was something like this:
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A young boy was playing a toy boat in the water when he accidentally let go of it. It drifted farther and farther away, and the boy began to cry.
His older brother began to throw rocks at it. The boy cried out, saying, "Why are you throwing rocks at my boat? That will only damage it! It won't help at all! Why are you being so mean?"
The other boy replied, "I am throwing rocks on the other side of it so that it will come back to us. Trust me. I have a plan."
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Life may often feel like God is throwing rocks at your life, when really, he is just trying to draw you closer to Him. Through the storm, you have to trust God, and know that he has a plan for your life.
Another horrible thing happened recently. I got my heart broken for the first time by a guy whom I had loved for 5 years. He was a Christian, really strong in Jesus, and such a nice guy. It broke me. I literally did not want to live anymore.
If you've never really gotten your heart broken, let me tell you how it feels. Unbearable anguish. Pain, ripping through you, tearing you apart. Agony as you have never experienced. Suffering. Deep suffering. Your heart literally hurts. It feels like an actual knife in your heart, twisting to give you the most agony possible. If you've never drastically gotten your heart broken, give your thanks to God and count your more than lucky.
I lost the will to live. I stopped eating. I couldn't bear the pain. It was the worst time I've had in my entire life.
Through this horrible, torturous time, I learned an important lesson, probably one of the most important lessons you'll ever hear in your life:
Jesus is the only thing in this world that will never, ever fail you. Everything else in this world will crumble. Everything. The storm will come, and they will either crumble or leave you. Every single one of them will fail you at one time or another. God is the only thing that will never fail you.
I realized that I was putting this guy ahead of Jesus. That he was consuming my thoughts daily, not Jesus. God was put second. That is why I had my heart broken so badly. I had to learn not to put other things before God.
Jesus is the only thing in this world that will never, ever fail you. I can't say it enough. My friend failed me. The guy failed me. Everything I depended on, put before God, failed me utterly.
I hope my story was inspirational to you. I hope it touched your heart like it was meant to. I hope my messages will help you sometime along the way. God bless you all.
