I think too much. Do other people think as much as I do? For example, maybe a normal person would think: "I have maths now, how boring." Then there is me: "what if space ripped apart now? What would I do? How much time do I have?".
I was with my counselor and we were talking, going from one topic to another. But mainly this one:
I'm tired.
Constantly tired, tired all the time, I'm uncomfortable and unmotivated. I'm done trying, trying to be perfect, trying to be happy.
I'm done trying to be someone I'm not.
I'm tired of being the perfect child for my parents.
But I have been trying to be someone else for so long that I don't know who I am, what I want to be and how to feel, what to feel.
I have problems registering my emotions. I don't know what I'm feeling. I have been lying to myself and other people for so long I don't know the truth anymore.
Am I really me? How am I supposed to feel right now?
I just kinda feel
Numb.
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Short StoryMy counselor told me to write how I feel when I'm down. Here it is. I know I am not the only one who feels like this. It's my not so pleasant story, I am not making this up for sympathy I am sharing this for understanding. I'm posting this because...
