Niall and I have been back together for three weeks now, and things are good. Well, mostly.. There are those days that he comes to visit me, and he's piss drunk.. And I don't say anything. I don't tell him that's how my dad was before he started getting violent. I don't want him to know about that, or for him to think that I'm accusing him of being that way. But it scares me.
He gets so mad so quick when he's drinking. It'll be okay one minute, and then the next he's flipping out. I get scared when it happens, but in stay quiet. He hasn't hurt me in anyway, so I guess I shouldn't be scared, but he's put his fist through the wall at least twice since we've been back together. But I'll stay quiet.
Right now, we're in the cinema. We're watching a horror film, and I've got my head buried in his chest. Now normally, I wouldn't mind horror, but I just want to be close to Niall. It's the first time he's held me like this in a while, and I want to make it last. The move ends, but I stay cuddled up to his side. "Babe, we've gotta go." He says, and I sigh a little, but stand. He leads me out.
We go to dinner, and chat contently. I start to be a bit more quiet as he orders his first couple drinks, but I don't think he notices. He keeps drinking, and I keep being quiet. By the time he's ready to leave, he can barely stand without swaying.
I wrap my arms around his waist and lead him out, stumbling along with him. I help him into the passenger's seat, then get in to drive. I have my license, but I don't drive much, so I'm a little nervous. I can drive, I just don't know how well this is gonna go. But I'd rather me drive than risk putting Niall in the driver's seat.
I start the car and pull out. Niall moves over closer to me. "Babe, c'mere." He says. I shake my head. "I'm trying to drive, Ni." I say, put my protests fall on deaf ears because he begins to kiss my neck. I sigh and try to focus on driving. "Niall, please. At least let me get us back to the dorms." I say, and he backs off a little. I drive back, wondering if this is all we'll ever be. Hanging out for maybe an hour all week, going out once on the weekends, him getting drunk as a skunk, and then sleeping together, even though I'd really rather wait until he's sober.
I finally get back and help Niall back to his room. He pulls me inside with him, pulling me into a kiss. I sigh softly, but let him kiss me, kissing back. After a few hours, with Niall passed out on his bed, I dress and walk out, leaving him a note in case he wakes. I walk back to my dorm and walk inside. Dani's out, and I'm assuming that she's with Liam. I grab some clothes and walk to the bathroom. I shower quickly and dress in a sweatshirt and some skinny jeans. I brush and braid my hair down one side, then walk back to my dorm.
It's a Friday, and a break week, so I don't have anymore classes until next Monday. I grab a bag from under my bed and start to pack some clothes into it. I just want away for a little while. I've got a bunch of money that I've been saving for years, so I have enough to get me away for a week. I have to get away from Niall for a little while. That might sound bad because he's my boyfriend, but I'll snap with all the alcohol he's been drinking if I can't get a break.
I walk out and down the street to a car rental place. I get a nice, sturdy little Range Rover and put my bags in the back. I drive off into the sunset. Well, not really. I leave London, just driving. I don't know where I'm going yet, but for a week, I'm gone.
