The Words Of A Poet

Love and Let Go

I sit here alone in the tub,often filled with thoughts of you.I keep telling myself you're happy now so I should be too.Every time someone says your name my whole body gets chills,every time my phone vibrates I hope its from you.Theres no amount of words to describe every ache my heart has towards you.Screaming hallelujah till you cough up blood because the devil came in thoughts of still our minds but instead stole our love.I began to slowly discover the truth within myself that my heart is a trapped door and it's waiting for the someone to fall into the center and take their final bow to become mine forever.When you look back at all that you regret;I hope you look back and think of me.I spent my time stressing over myself as I tried to form lies to convince myself that the relationship was a cause of the worlds oppression and not my need to feel needed.Finally I've come to admit I want to feel needed.I choose to ignore the fact that those soft lips I use to always love to kiss formed the words goodbye.The bottom of the ocean seemed to be a better source of oxygen.To find love within the arms of another than of this my heart.Its fine because i would do the same;I would leave me.Not because I'm useless or broken,not because I'm worthless.But I saw values in your smile and not your values.That's why I sleep at night;knowing you are free and able to thrive.I'm so happy I got to be apart of your life.I finally feel fine because I spent so much time trying to fix you when I was the one who needed fixing.Theres so many things my selfishness tried to take away but you were the one that was hardest to watch walk away.I've learned that love is not a game,and your heart is not a toy.I wish I had learned this sooner and I'm sorry you feel I stole your joy.A room full of living beings with souls that have died;praying for a miracle that brings miracles to life.I guess the dead will never shiver, they'll never be cold enough to wish they were alive but this chill you left down my spine is all it took to make me wish I would've died.You taught me how to love life.You taught me how to let it show.You taught me how to let it go.I love you and I'm sorry.