Fille à la Casquette

Run and hide or speak the truth

Catalina stared at Sebastian for only god knows how long, it could have been minutes or even hours. When she stopped staring she started screaming and crying.

"WHY SEBASTIAN WHYYYYYYYY!!!" she screamed at him but he didn't even look her way.

"DON'T YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'VE DONE? ?!!??" she cried falling to her knees.

She hated him...she hated herself, How could she have been so stupid. She shouldn't have cared about the threats he made or the outcome but maybe... just maybe things would have turned out differently if she'd told Javier.

"STUPID STUPID STUPID. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE LINA???" she cried, screaming at him and herself.

"OH MY GOD!!! WHAT AM I GOING TO TELL JAVIER?" she asked more to herself then to him but that made him turn to face her. He had been blocking out her sobs up until that moment.

He got off the bed and walked over to her, taking her by the arm he jerked her to her feet roughly.

"YOU WON'T FUCKING TELL JAVIER ANYTHING!  YOU HEAR ME BITCH?!" he said to her firmly.

She tried to move away from him but it was no use, he was holding her to tight. She just looked into his eyes and saw something that created fear in her. She shook her head 'yes' and he through her to the floor.

He grabbed his clothes and turned to walk out of the room but not before sparing her one last look.

She sat there on the floor , for a while after he left. She needed to know what to do but she didn't have the answers.

After a while she went to the bathroom to take a shower, she needed to wash away the feeling of him. She could still feel him inside her.

When she got In the shower she scrubbed until her skin turned red. She knew he came inside of her but no matter how hard she scrubbed, it just wasn't enough. 

She fell to the floor and cried as the water washed over her. She sat in there until the water ran cold and only then did she slowly get out of the shower.

She dragged herself out and pulled on a long shirt that belonged to Javi and a pair of underwear. 

She was going to go back to sleep but she couldn't sleep in that bed, not after what he did. She walked out of the room and down the hall, going into one of the spare rooms. She didn't have much strength to do anything else, so she just slept.

She slept most of the time Javi was away and when he would call she wouldn't answer, she would just tell one of the maids to tell him she was sick or asleep. She wanted to speak to him but with the fear of telling him her secret she couldn't. When she was awake she would think of the outcome of the situation and cry. She would tire herself out and fall back to sleep,  she didn't think that she would be able to handle it when he came back, she dreaded the day.

It was four days after Javier had left and there was a knock at her door.

"Who is it?" Catalina asked weakly.

"Its me miss..." said one of the maids, as she opened the door, slowly stepping in.

"Yes, what is it?" she asked quietly.

"Well, Mr.Hernandez called and said that he would be home later on this evening"

Catalina was excited that Javier would be home soon but then, that feeling quickly turned into dread. She didn't know how she was going to tell him what happened between her and Sebastian. She didn't even know if she should tell him but she had to...right? She was confused. She couldn't even think straight. 

She decided that she would get ready for his return. She started early because she felt like crap which meant that she looked like crap too.

She climbed into the shower and let the water cascade down her body.

When she finished her shower she wrapped herself in a towel and left the bathroom. She walked into her closet and looked through all of her clothes, she had to find the perfect outfit. She wanted to be beautiful and comfortable at the same time.

She found a dress that fell just below her knee. It was White with black lace at the top and on the hem. She did her hair and found a pair of black heels to go with the dress.

By the time she was done she still had an hour ot two before Javier was supposed to be home. She left the room for what seemed like the first time that week.

She made sure that everything was perfect for when Javier came home. She found she couldn't sit still, she was just so nervous.

An hour later, Catalina heard the door open and then voices coming from down the hall. Javier was home. She stood slowly and walked towards the hall, only stopping to look herself over in the full length mirror. She pulled the skirt of her dress down and took a deep breath.

She felt guilt rise in her throat, but she kept walking towards her husband. He hadn't yet noticed her, because he was talking to one of the maids. She stopped a few feet away from him, keeping the distance between them. The sound of hid voice bring some comfort to her.

"Where is Cat-" he didn't finish his question.  He turned around to face her at the same time she placed a half smile on her face.

"There you are!" he said as he finished turning to face her, she didn't move from her position.

He looked at her curiously.  "What's the matter you didn't miss me, mi amor?"

She did miss him but she still couldn't make up her mind. Should she tell him or wait...but for how long?

She smiled brighter and moved forward to go to him. He opened his arms to her. They embraced each other in a hug. Javier hugged her tight, it felt like forever since the last time he'd seen her. He didn't want to let her go but he did. As he let her go, he placed a soft kiss on her lips.

He took her hand and lead the way to the table where dinner was waiting. He pulled her chair out and she took a seat. Once she was seated he took his. The maids served dinner and Catalina listened to Javier talk about his business trip.   

She was quite throughout the entire dinner, just giving the appropriate nod or simple answer when spoken to.

When dinner was over and everything was cleared away , her and Javier walked to their bedroom together. When he opened the door, Catalina had flashbacks of what happened there. Even though the room was clean like nothing ever happened, but she knew that something had.

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Well this isn't exactly where I wanted to end this chapter but I wanted to give you guys something.  I will be updating a lot more since im out of school, so there should be another update coming soon.

-a