Smile (New Kid!Dib x Bully!Zim) (ZaDr Highschool AU)

Pathetic Love

(Warning: self harm ahead! Remember, I don't promote self harm, please don't do it! This is fictional!)

~Dib's POV~

Skool dragged on forever. I attempted to avoid Zim the whole day. As soon as I heard the final bell I ran straight home.
I ran into my room and slammed the door. I dug through my desk drawer until I pulled out a small knife. I had that knife for self defense, but today it would serve another purpose.
The knife was shining in the sunlight. I smiled sadly before holding out my wrist and pressing it against my skin. The pain didn't affect me in the slightest.
I watched the blood drip onto the floor. I repeated my actions several times until my arm glistened with wet blood. I cleaned off my arm but neglected to bandage it. Who would care anyways?
I put the knife back and walked towards the window. I was immidatly greeted by the small robot. I opened my window to let him in, since he seemed like he just wanted to be my friend.
He flew in quickly and landed on my bed. He bounced a few times from the impact.
"Master told me to tell ya to come to his place!" He said cheerfully.
"Is your master... Zim?" I asked cautiously.
"Mhm!" He answered.
"Tell him I'm busy..." I said quietly, putting my hand on my wrist.
"But he REALLY needs to see ya!" He protested.
"Ok... fine..." I sighed. I wasn't sure why I agreed to this. Maybe because that robot was the only thing o felt like I could trust.
I stood up and walked downstairs with the robot following.
I crossed the street and cautiously knocked on the door, it opened by itself for some reason.
I slowly entered, the door slammed shut behind me. I turned around to look at it.
"Hello again..." I heard Zim's voice behind me.
I wanted to cry just from hearing his voice. I turned around slowly, trying to keep a brave face, though I wasn't sure if it was for him, or myself.
I tried to look him in the eyes and immediately felt my face heat up.
Am I... BLUSHING!? No way! Am I in love with my enemy!?!?
I must have completly spaced out because Zim started waving his hand in front of my face slowly.
Without thinking, I grabbed him by the shoulders and started shaking him.
"I CAN'T BE IN LOVE!" I yelled frantically.
"In love...?" He repeated quietly.
My eyes widened, I just screwed up big time.

~Zim's POV~

In love with who...? Me!? No way...
"Ha! You don't deserve my love! You're-!"
"Pathetic..." he finished my sentence quietly. He was now looking at his feet.
I reached towards him slowly. He suddenly looked up at me. Tears were streaming down his face and his eyes were narrowed.
"I'm pathetic! I'm worthless, idiotic, scared and alone! Is that what you wanted to hear!?" He yelled, tears fell quickly from his eyes. "I'm just a fucked up crazy loser who believes in the paranormal, right? Right!?"
I was speechless now. Completly speechless.
"Answer me!" He demanded, looking me straight in the eyes.
"No..." I said quietly. I felt like I wanted to cry right then and there.
"W-what...?" Dib asked, he stepped back. His voice was no longer filled with rage, instead it was soft and shy, like before.
"I said no..." I repeated, looking down. "You're not accepted into your society... neither am I..." I looked up and smiled sadly.
Dib smiled suddenly. A soft, caring smile.
"We're really not that different, huh?" He said softly.
"Mhm..." I said, a smile slowly spreading onto my face.
Dib's smile widened until it was a full grin. Honestly, he looked adorable!
My eyes trailed down towards his wrist, which was lined with small cuts. Even I knew what this was.
He noticed where my gaze was pointed and out his hands behind his back.
I smiled softly and pulled off my black trench coat.
"Here" I stated simply. "Use this to cover up..." I handed it to him. He smiled and took it.
"Thanks...!" He said softly. He slipped it on. A perfect fit. Plus, it suited him really well!
"It's getting late... I should head back.. " he said. He looked dissapointed.
"That's fine... see ya tomorrow human!"
He was opening the door as I said that. He paused and turned around to look at me.
"See ya alien!" He said before walking out and closing the door.
"Alien...?" I repeated quietly.

How did he know?