Finding Myself

Endless Dream

Chapter1

I'm drowning...

Darkness is consuming. There is no one to help me. Water is filling my lungs. While I am trying to get to the surface, I hear a scream.

A little girl's scream... My scream...

Someone's touching my arm pulling me to the shore. But I don't want them to, as if there is something out there. Something that I'm trying hard not to let go.

Only a whisper is reaching my ears before everything goes dark...

."We will come for you my love. We will see each other again..."

I woke up one more time trying to breathe. My clothes were a  mess because of my sweat. 10 years... For ten years I'm dreaming things that are not from my memories. Every time I wake up  finding myself wondering to whom that voice belongs. It sounds so familiar but at the same time so foreign. No matter for how long I dream about it, it still effects me. But I'm used to it now. I try to tell myself that it's just a really really realistic dream and that is all.  

Anyway, it feels wrong rambling like this before introducing myself.  My name is Leia. I'm 15 and a werewolf, or... I was supposed to be. I haven't shifted yet. That might be the reason why I'm being called 'the weakling of the pack'. You see, every female werewolf is supposed to shift when they turn 12 and male wolves shift at the age of 10. They can't find their mates, in other words soul mates, until they turn 16. It doesn't matter at what age the female wolf is. The feeling of the mates' bond is so powerful for man that they can detect their mates regardless of the female's age. Of course they have to wait until the female is at the legal age but since they have already found them, at least both parts can be prepared.

In my case it's really humiliating. I mean around the adults I only get pitiful glances but around teenagers well, you know how they are.

I'm sick of hearing all the things they  say  about me but what can I even do? I can't just pack my bags and run away. I can't become a rouge. Most packs hate them and kill them at sight and with my situation I can't even fight for my life. Oh I forgot it. You don't even know how I look like. I have dull brown hair and again dull blue eyes. I am unfortunately considered as an obese, yeah that sucks, especially when you are a teen among many, many beautiful teens who already got their supernatural powers. Late bloomer, right...

 You know there is one more reason why I can't just leave, Gabriel...

He is the most amazing guy I have ever met. He is very, very handsome like the creator sent him on earth to show people how good looking a person can be. But I can't say the same thing for his personality. He is one of the people who bully me around school but he and his friends leave me alone at home because there are elders. Of course that doesn't mean I am not doing their chores. I wake up at freaking 6 o'clock just to get their breakfast ready so that they can go to school with a full tummy.

The Alpha and my parents think I'm doing it out of the kindness of my heart, like I said they don't know anything.

Enough dreaming! I have to get up and start making breakfast. Today is Gabriel's 16th birthday. It's a very important day because he will find his mate. I wonder who it will be. I bet she will be beautiful and smart and kind. Someone that can pull Gabriel from all the sluts that he's been sleeping with. I would give everything just to be his mate, not to be a Luna but to be with him.

I get up from my bed and walk to my bathroom to take a shower. After that I start walking towards the kitchen. That's when I see Bridget while she is going out of Gabriel's room with only his shirt. Suddenly she sees me and smirks knowing that I have feelings for him. I feel a pang of sadness but try not to show to her. I seriously should stop being affected from his one night stands.

All of a sudden, he walks out of the room and notices me standing there with a frown.

"Move." he says harshly without looking at me. I didn't know that I was blocking his way with my big fat body so I lower my head and walk hastily towards the kitchen.

When I arrive, I see the Luna and Kayla, Gabriel's little sister. She is the cutest little thing ever. I babysit her most of the nights. She loves it when I sing her to sleep. I swear the kid has more kindness in her pinky then most of the people have in their whole bodies'. And the Luna, wow, she is one of the most beautiful women in the world with her flowing red hair and gorgeous green eyes. I wish Gabriel would be a little more like his parents.

 When she sees me she smiles at me warmly.

"Leia, good morning darling. Did you sleep well?" I adore that woman.

"Yes my Luna thank you." That's a total lie of course I couldn't sleep because of the bruises on my arms and legs which was made by my bullies. "I came here to get the breakfast ready. I know it's Gabriel's birthday so I was going to make something special."

"Oh honey that's not necessary I will make the breakfast today. It's not every day that your son finds his mate." she says proudly

"Are you sure? I don't mind doing it." I say but I was secretly relieved that I didn't have to do the whole deed by myself.

"Yes I'm sure. You go and get ready for school after that we can all have a nice breakfast." I smile but I knew deep down that those bullies wouldn't let me have breakfast with them. So I quietly go to my room and get dressed. Don't get me wrong when I say 'dressed' because no matter how much I want to dress like those hot girls, the only things I can wear are sweatshirts and giant jeans. I pull my hair into a ponytail and grab my back pack. Since none of the teen pack members of mine will let me get in their cars, I have to walk all the way to school. I usually take the bus but I miss it sometimes, like now.

You know in some of those movies, a guy comes to the girl's house even before sunrise and waits for her but when she gets out of the house, she doesn't want to get in and the guy follows her until she finally gives up and gets in and they go to school together. Yeah well that doesn't happen to me. I'm just a big fat nobody. I'm just an entertainment source for popular kids and of course a punch bag for the ones who want to get their anger out from somewhere. Of course who else can be a better punching bag than I am...

Well I hope something changes in my life today because I'm starting get sick of my daily routine and all that shit! Forgive my language...  

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Not much thing has been changed in this chapter but you'll see the difference when I upload the rest of the story. Thank you for reading and all things you do. It's good to be back :)