Dreams do come true// adopted by phan

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Warning: this chapter contains details of self harm. If you are triggered by this, there will be: *** at the start and end of the section containing self harm.

Dan's POV:
I'm sat reading through the comments of the video and a lot of them are positive and kind, however there are quite a few hate comments. They're mainly directed towards Evie. I'm worried, I know she still deals with depression. It's got better but it's still there and this probably won't help, I just hope she doesn't take them seriously.

Evie's POV:
I wake up to dan and phil talking, i can't quite make out what they're saying because they're probably in the living room. Rolling out bed I decide I want to go for a run, I shower and change into this:

I pull my hair into a messy bun, grab my phone and earphones. And make my way down stairs. When I get downstairs, I go into the living room to see dan and Phil say on the settee together scrolling the internet. Dan looks up and says "morning Evie, why are u in your workout clothes?" "Because, dan, I want to maintain my fitness and the only way of doing that is by exercising.... so I'm going on a run" I reply, dan turns to phil and says "is it just me that feels intimidated by the fact that a 14 year old is in better shape than i am?" And phil reply's with "no, i don't get why u need to exercise tho Evie" "because I might be skinny but that doesn't mean I'm in shape" "but Evie, you're a figure skater, a ballet dancer and work out regularly, you're in shape" he says " but it's not going to stay this way if I don't keep up with it" "fine be back soon tho" dan says before I get annoyed "see ya soon" I said as I walked out the door.

Time skip to after Evie's run:

I get in and I'm all sweaty so I let dan and phil know that I'm back and head upstairs to shower. I put some music on and step in. The song that's playing is 'human' by Cristina Perri and naturally I start singing. I wash my hair and get out. I pick my outfit, and I know we're not going out so I throw on some comfy clothes and my mum's jumper:

I then dry my hair and put it into space buns. Then I remember the video, I sit on my bad with my cuddly bunny and open my laptop. I'm nervous, hopefully they're all nice but I know it's not going to be like that. I load the comments and the first comments are nice, which gives me hope. But the comes the hate: 'she's so ugly and fat', 'loose some wait u piece of shite', 'she looks disgusting!', 'kill yourself, it would be a a better place without you', 'dan and phil only feel sorry for you, they don't actually love you'. That's it, I've had enough

*** (self harm warning)
I grab my razors from under my bed, go into the bathroom and lock the door. I roll up my sleeve and put the cold metal to my wrist.
1) for the hate
2) for dan
3) for phil
4) for Mum
I start to cry silently
5) for Dad
6) for being fat
My sobs get a bit louder
7) for being ugly
Someone's knocking at the door and I hear dan "Evie, are you ok?" I ignore him
8) for being worthless
I hear him call for phil, I guess he's figured it out.
9) for being stupid
They try the door handle, but I locked it "get the spare key"
10) for thinking that I was ok
I carry on cutting until dan and phil barge through the door. I drop my blade and pull my sleeve down. "Oh Evie!" Dan says as they both sit down, phil moves the razor away. "Why?" Phil asks "hate" I reply, simply. Dan squeezes me harder "show me" he says, I stay still " Evie show me the cuts" he says softly and I lift my sleeve to show 14 fresh, new cuts. They both gasp. I see a tear roll down dans cheek as they both hug me tighter than I have ever been hugged in my life. "Let's clear this up" dan says, standing up. I stand up too and he rinses my wrist under warm water and wraps it in a bandage whilst phil throws away the razor. "Do have any more?" Phil asks I nod and walk into my bedroom and they follow. I reach under my bed and give him my box. "Thank you" he says and puts it to one side.

*** end of self harm section

"Evie, those comments are not true, we love you with all of our hearts." Dan says, we're now sat on my bed both of the hugging me tightly. I feel safe.

A/n: I finally updated!!!! I'm so sorry it's been so long, a lot has happened recently and I've not had much motivation to do anything. If anyone feels like Evie or is triggered by this stuff, my pm is always open and I will always give as much support and love as I can. I love you all so much, stay safe and I'll see u all soon 💛💛