A Love Story that Never Was

Chapter 1

Rejection.

No matter how short the encounter, the act of giving myself to another plants seeds within the soil of my heart - seeds that bear lasting fruit. I can be sure that my relationship with *** leaves a permanent mark upon my spirit. Long after his "departure", the evidence of his presence remains.

Dealing with the residue of my past relationships can be an overwhelming proposition.

HOW CAN I BREAK FREE FROM THE CONSTANT REMINDERS OF THAT LOST RELATIONSHIP? HOW DO I COME TO TERMS WITH THE INJUSTICE OF BEING CAST AWAY INSPITE OF ALL I HAVE TO OFFER? AND WORST OF ALL, HOW DO I DEAL WITH HAVING TO HURT ALONE WHEN LIFE SEEMS TO GO ON WITHOUT A RIPPLE FOR THE ONE WHO LEFT YOU WEEPING IN REJECTION'S WAKE?

Even through the pain of being rejected, I can take comfort knowing that GOD is near to me and is able to turn the bitter to sweet because I have embraced His counsel. For HE uses every experience to perfect me into greater vessels bearing fruit for HIS glory. And so, I offer this prayer to HIM,

Dear heavenly Father, I have been the victim of bad choices. Some deliberate, some against my better judgment. I have failed myself and failed You. I admit that I was not prepared for the consequences of my actions, and the burden of them seems to much to bear. So here I stand, looking to Your hands for healing. For support and help. Whom have I in heaven but You? Whom have I in the earth besides You?

After all is said and done, You alone are the only one who will not spurn my offering of love. Forgive me for taking so long to see this.

But now I come, mistakes in hand, asking You to take what the enemy meant for evil and make it good. Redeem my past failings and pain and grant me a new beginning. Give me a reason to live and love again. As I embrace You, fill the space left behind by thos who rejected me and set me apart for your purposes, to the praise and glory of your name, in Jesus' name.

Amen.