The Spider and The Flame (Peter Parker)

Part 27- True Intentions

A/N this pic of Ash and Peter is so cute :( I miss them together so much. I hate doing this to you guys.

Peter's POV

"No! That's not what I'm doing. I-I changed. You turned me into this, this superhero. I wanted to be like you, because I love you, Peter. I'm here trying to make up for everything I've done wrong. I know that I hurt you, and I understand if you never forgive me."

I close my mouth and stare at Ash. She has put me through bullshit after bullshit, and somehow, I still want to forgive her. She has her hooks in me so deep, I don't know if I'll ever be able to get over her.

I feel like I'm suffocating. I don't know what to do, what to say, or how to act. I'm so angry, and I'm so ashamed.

It's been her the entire time, and I never even guessed until now. I knew that Angel was similar to Ash, but I always just thought that my mind was playing tricks on me. That perhaps my mind was forcing me to notice the inexistent similarities between them. But, as it turns out, I was just fooling myself.

The vanilla coffee, pizza, Keeping up with the Kardashians, it was all stuff that we did together. Every single thing she brought up forced me into reliving those bittersweet memories all over again.

"I don't know." I finally say, then run towards the side of the roof. This is all too much to handle right now.

I want to forgive her, so badly. I know that she's sorry for leaving, and for hurting me.

But I just can't.

She knew it would break my heart, and she knew there were a bunch of other ways she could've gone. But she chose explicitly to hurt me, and I don't know if I can ever forgive her for that. Then she went and made the fucking flash drive to twist the knife. What could've possibly driven her to do that?

"Peter!" She calls out to me as I jump off the building. My heart aches as I leave her on the roof, the girl I once loved, and ironically still do.

I swing through the city streets, trying to hold myself back from bawling. I know it sounds really weak and soft, but I can't help it.

To burn with desire and stay quiet about it is the worst burden to bear. I finally understand that.

I reach my bedroom window and find it unlocked, exactly how I left it. Ned and I convinced Aunt May that we were studying, so he kept watch for me while I went out on patrol.

I crawl in through the window and along the ceiling, finding Ned sat on my bed in the corner. He flips through his phone and giggles, probably reading stupid memes.

I drop to the floor and place my mask on my desk.

"How was it?" Ned asks, not looking up from his phone.

I don't say anything. If I try to get a word out, I'm going to cry.

"Pete?" Ned pushes on, his eyes finally meeting mine. "Woah, Woah. Are you okay?"

"Ned..." I croak, letting tears brim my eyes. My hands are shaking and the skin on my face tingles.

"Whats going on?"

"I have to tell you something..." I say, making my way over to my best friend and sitting on the bed next to him. My cheeks are stained with tears and my eyes are probably bloodshot. I bet I look like a fucking mess.

"Go for it, dude."

"This summer..." I begin to explain my entire experience at the Avengers facility. "I-I-I met a girl."

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Ash's POV

As Peter swings through the city streets, I stay exactly where he left me. I can hardly move a muscle, it's like I'm frozen in place.

He hates me, he completely and utterly hates me. I know that what I did was wrong, so, so wrong, but I thought that maybe Pete would be able to forgive me.

What a stupid idea.

I did terrible things, abandoning him in the fire, leaving him that USB, pretending to be someone else. I understand why he would never want to talk to me again.

I sit on the roof of the Queens building for hours, staring up at the stars and crying. My whole body is physically drained, and emotionally I'm a total wreck.

I love Peter, so much. He has to understand that by now. He can't possibly still think that I'm lying about everything, can he?

"Peter Parker..." I whisper to myself, shaking my head back and forth. I sniffle my nose, "god, I love you..."

I sit up and try to collect myself, wiping the tears from my cheeks.

Sitting here and crying all night isn't going to help me win Peter back. I need to do something, something major. I need to prove it to him that I'm here for him, not just for Spider-Man or for the fame. I have to show him that I'm here for the star wars jokes, the late night pizza and movies, the dimples he gets in his cheeks when he laughs, even the smell of his favourite cologne. I'm truly, completely, undeniably all in on Peter Parker.

Now I just need to prove it.

A/N anyone have any ideas on how Ash is going to prove her love for Peter? Bet you'll never guess it ;)