Loving You Still {Z.M}

Fifteen (part two)

Esme

Once we pull up to the apartment, I notice Brayden's car isn't in the parking lot. That means I can actually talk to Zayn without an audience. Zayn walks in front of me while we walk towards his apartment complex. I like it better here than I do at my dads. Probably because Zayn makes me feel safe.

"Zayn can we talk?" I ask him as he opens the door. Zayn nods slightly, as he steps inside and I follow close behind him. My hand smooths out my shirt from the front. I'm nervous. I don't know why I'm so nervous but I am.

I close the door behind me, Zayn turns around to face me. His head is tilted to the side, his bottom lip is captured between his lips. I don't know how to start this. Should I be blunt or try to tread lightly on the subject?

"I'm guessing this is the talk about what's going on with you and Logan am I right?" Zayn asks me, and instantly I freeze. My mind freezes the thoughts I was thing to sort out. Zayn lets out a sigh, his posture slouches slightly. My silence was his answer.

"Kyla told me how cute we were and how cute how we got engaged so fast. I was confused so I asked her about it, and she said it was cool on how I was friendly towards Logan despite you and him having been together." Zayn says, finishing off my thoughts. Kyla said something about us. I should've known, I shouldn't have left.

"Zayn I can explain." I state instantly. A hurt look passes through his face, as he stares at me. His eyes stare at me, and I feel myself unraveling under his stare. Nothing I'll say will be okay. I see that. After everything we've been through, he expected more from me.

"You were with him? I was sitting here waiting for you like a dumb ass while you were shacking it up with someone else?" Zayn asks, his voice rising at the end. I deserve this. I deserve every second of this.

"I told everyone you were the only one for me! I didn't expect my girlfriend to be running off with some other man the first chance she got Esme! I love you." Zayn states, his voice becoming softer when he tells me he loves me.

"I love you too Zayn, I really do." I plead softly, taking a step back. Zayn shakes his head, taking another step back away from me. I can feel my cheeks heating up, and my heart beating a little faster in my chest. I don't say anything as Zayn turns around his back facing me.

"Get out Esme. I don't want to fight like this. You cheated on me and expect me to be okay with it?" Zayn asks, he turns back around to face me. His arms are crossed in front of me. His eyes trail over my face before his eyes settle on the ring on my hand.

"You can take that off. I'm breaking up with you Esme. I don't need to wife someone who cheats on me and doesn't even tell me. I thought you were better than that." Zayn states shaking his head. My heart breaks when he tells me when he tells me he's breaking up with me.

"No, Zayn don't. We can fix this. He didn't even mean anything to me. Please baby." I beg softly, Zayn lets out a scoff as he shakes his head. His hand runs down his face before shaking his head.

"Don't do that Esme. I spent all this time making sure you and I were okay this entire time meanwhile you were keeping this from me. Get out Esme. Quit making this harder than it should be. You seriously expected that I would stay even after I knew about you and Logan?" Zayn asks me, his eyes staring at me. My bottom lip starts trembling, as I realize what's actually going on.

I cheated on the one person who loves me dearly, and now. He's breaking up with me because I hurt him the way he didn't expect from me. I cheated on him and now I'm single and heartbroken.

Zayn

Fuck. How did everything get so fucked up? I stand in my bedroom, my lamp is on the ground broken. Papers and books are scattered amongst the floor with blankets and pillows. Four hours ago I broke up with Esme. My knuckles are busted and bruising from me punching the wall.